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Thursday, May 7, 2009

At each moment, I can forgive myself and make a new start.  


   'We'll thrive if we are given the freedom and encouragement to try again'


Falcon CI Thurs.

Hi pro buddies,

Whew.  I got my medical procedure scheduled for the end of the month.  A dear friend offered to go with me for the scary test that I have to go for before that.  And my therapist had a cancellation this evening, so I was able to make a last-minute appointment to go collapse into a shivering little ball of stress in his office for a while.  Which helped. . . sometimes it's good to just ride out the stress with a sympathetic person, and find whatever strength is at the bottom of it.

Tonight, the most important things are to:

  • Drink some warm milk - DONE
  • Get clothes together for tomorrow - DONE
  • Change into pjs - DONE
  • Do a little stretching
  • Brush teeth, etc. - DONE
  • Spend a few minutes meditating/practicing - STARTED and fell asleep!
  • Get to bed- On my way to do this. . . GOOD NIGHT!


Edited to add:  Wow.  Amazing how I'm fighting myself on doing such a few simple things. . . that are for taking care of myself!  O.k., taking a deep breath. . . going to put on pjs and brush my teeth.  I can handle that. . . really!  Wink



sounds like you are doing very well under stressful circumstances. Sending healing thoughts your way

"The secret of getting ahead is getting started." Mark Twain

Recycler CI 8:05pm EST

Hi Pro Buddies!

This morning I drove uptown, went to the gym, did my cardio, ab exercises, and stretching.

At work I responded to emails and did some projects on my list. At lunchtime I had planned to go to an activity, but needed to go on a walk, so I did that instead, then ate lunch. In the afternoon, I focused on upcoming deadline projects, and ticked those one by one off my list.

Arriving at home, I went on another walk, then wrote 2 emails to friends. Also tonight, my condo building is having a party in the condo atrium. A DJ is playing Buddha Lounge-type music that I like.

Next: I need to do a fun project that won't take long, but will help me get ready for an event I am hostessing this weekend. So that means ... yep, that's right, I am dragging my feet & putting off working on it. ((sigh)) Strategy: I will do it, then update my post that I have done it. OK, I can do 1 Web Surf, then my next goal will be making the prop.

9:05pm. Ok, I made the prop. While not great, it will be functional. I also did a couple things on Interent & email that should help me get ready. Next: I have a load of clothes in the washer -- I need to hang those up, then I can go to sleep.

Have a great night, everyone!



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

I'm pretty freaked out. 

I'm pretty freaked out.  Got an audition tonight, and I feel like I should drop some weight and exercise, but I won't have enough time before the audition today.  I really hate that feeling.  It's truly defeating.

Good luck on audition F_S!

Soon you will harvest what you are planting today - Steve Pavlina

web site



What was the name of the web site you posted the other day?


it sounded good

re: website

I think that might be what you are asking about


Soon you will harvest what you are planting today - Steve Pavlina

fudo shin

I have a bad habit of feeling that way, but lately I am finding out that if I am gentle with myself, I can accept who I am now as good enough. Especially helpful is a 12 step prayer that is in the AA Big Book: I say, Thy will be done, not mine, which helps me remember that I do not control the outcomes of things and accept what happens.

Break a leg....

"The secret of getting ahead is getting started." Mark Twain

fingers crossed!

Hi Fudo Shin!

Good luck with everything! Let us know how it goes!



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

Focus check in

  Seem to be having a hard time staying focused too.

I did do several things on my list, but can not seem to stay on track.

Right now- on line work, son has soccer at 6, store, get ready for tommorrow so that I am not late for school.



rec check-in

I have had trouble staying focused on a "to-do" list lately as my days have been chopped up , time-wise, due to meetings and appointments. I have revised draft letter to I, need to finalize it and fax it today. Also need to work on JB file a bit more and get revised docs out. That it all for now to try to keep focused on the important tasks first.


kromer 2:20 CI

OK, I've had a terrible time working today...made some progress on a presentation and went to class, but that's it.

Right now I'm going to set an immediate goal: I want to review 2 lectures and then go to review session. 

kromer 4:30 CI

Did the above tasks.

A  large assigment got postponed: yay! So I'm much less panicked than I thought I was.

I'm still having a hard time focusing, so I'm going to set another immediate goal: review 3 more lectures. Once that's done, I'll work on my presentation for as much time as I have. Then, I'll go out to dinner with friends at 6:45

kromer 8:30 CI

I ended up going through only one lecture (it was a very long and tough one though), then I went out for dinner.

Now, I need to print out a bunch of stuff, go over another lecture, and head home to get list of TFs, send some emails and pack. 

kromer 10:40 CI

Printed out a bunch of stuff, came home, made bfast and lunch for tomorrow. Now: list of TFs (20-30 min), then emails/phone calls, then pack and bed.

Kromer: TF?

a new to me acronym: what does it mean?

"The secret of getting ahead is getting started." Mark Twain

Sammy ci :: 12:45 pm

Hi everyone,

I finally finished that stupid zimbabwe paper for economics. Got an email today from my econ teacher saying I had been dropped from the class because i missed class last week. >:-/  grrrrr. I missed class because I was working on a final project for a different class. I know its my own fault, but I still feel angry about it.

I'll post more later, I have things to do before I leave for class tonight... 

CI Dotnow

Goals - look for Summer job.


summer jobs

meeeeeeeeee toooooooooo.

I applied for a job as a camp counselor- Thought i had it for sure.

Got a letter yesterday saying they chose someone else. >.< 

hugs, Sammy!

Hi Sammy!

Hugs to you! I hope you will find a sumemr job that you want!



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

Friday's e

good morning and lovely thread starter, Chick! It is a great reminder of what works when I work it. It is rainy and bleak here today: even the dog doesn't want to get out of bed, but I am up and showered, dressed and futon made up. simple routines are beginning to become natural to me and I am so grateful to have had the time not working to begin to relearn how to live. I worked a lot yesterday on a long standing, yet not urgent project yesterday and my head feels clearer for it. However, there are important priorities I have been ducking that I would like to get through today, if only for 15 minutes. As I know that my own ideas are likely to lead me down the wrong path, I am asking my hp for the help in doing the next right thing. Which for right now is to find my medication, take it, drink some water and get out with the dog before I eat breakfast. bbl.

"The secret of getting ahead is getting started." Mark Twain

byGodsGracetodays CI

That was exactly the starter/word I needed today - thank you Sarito and Chickadee!  God promises that when i pray He hears me and I can repent and receive forgiveness and let HIm take the weight of it off of me so I am able to go forward - make a new start.

I have been doing well overall, just this job2 has been a source of fear and avoidance from the beginning for me - today I give it up to God and ask for forgiveness for my fear and lack of faith and action on it. God help me do this job with joy and grace and stop looking at my own weakness. I can start fresh today in you. 

My Word and prayer for the day: 2 Cor 12:9 (the message translation)

“My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.”  Help me receive today Lord and act by your grace. 

My to do list: 

Read Bible/Pray, Dd school

Email jobAB, jobM  confirm payment, email list proof

Job2 really, really, really FINISH today –logo, sample, invoice, emails

Library, store returns, bank

dd school  2:30p, st/ot 3:45-5:30

FINISH Thank you notes, Clear email

Today is a gift from God- that is why they call it "The Present"

God's biggest gift to me is the forgiveness and another start- thanks for reminding me with the beautiful starting message. I try to teach that to my children because I was never taught this. Thank you for the reminder.

Ok, I lost my journal, 1 of my meditation books, list, etc. etc.But I will start with my 1 meditation book, write the list and staple it to my journal when I find it. At least I could check in this site, and I will start where I am and not spend hours looking for things and berating myself.

I will check in later. Starting from here. Thanks for being here.





Finish project 1
Attend conference at one

Don't know how I am going to do this

Journey 9 am

Good morning everyone!  Back in the office today after two days working at home.  Yesterday was ok, I did all of my high priority items but didn't get to the lower priority items on my list and I thought I had planned well.   Some things took longer than I planned, and I spent more time goofing off than I planned :P but on the whole it was an ok day.

Today, I want to review the results of last night's test and do some follow up on some issues we had - not problems really but some unexplained differences that need to be resolved before we can install this stuff in production. 

I also want to track my spending against my budget this month, as i haven't really been doing that lately.  I'll work on this for 15 minutes sometime today. 

I want to reinstall the BZ product today, I've been planning to do that since I got my new laptop months ago and it keeps falling off my todo list because it is low priority.   I have it hokeyed up so it mostly works, but I really want to get this done right.

Also call the doc for results of my blood tests, he thought my thyroid tests were a bit off last year and he may put me on some thyroid meds this year.  I'm looking forward to finding out about that because he said having hypothyroid (sp?) could cause fatigue and weight gain and although I feel fine, I'd be'd real happy with more energy and less weight haha!

I'm going for coffee, prepare for my 9:30 meeting, then write up the minutes of that meeting.  Then I'll be in the chatbox.   I have a 10:00 assembler coding class that a coworker is doing for our group, but I think I'll blow it off today since I missed this entire lesson anyway.   I'll pick it again next week.


Soon you will harvest what you are planting today - Steve Pavlina

Mansah's CL -13.46

That's a great and very encouraging starter chickadee, thank you so much.


I had my first exam today - I had not revised at all and actually I did not feel too guilty about it until last night when suddenly I couldn't sleep and had to find all sorts of good luck things to bring me through today.

I was also afraid I might not get up in time as I needed to be up by seven and I haven't been up before 11 for the last age or so.


But to my great happiness I did actually get up in time, I managed to chuck in a little revision on the bus and I think I put it to as good a use as possible during the exam - which is far from ideal but when you are trying to solve chaos that's all you ask for isn't it?

I sat the exam - left 15 minutes before, I didn't read through my answers afterwards because I knew I would be disappointed with myself for not having done more, but I feel like I need to focus on the positive - that I did go to the exam, that I wrote something and that I have only three more left.

I am going to work in a couple of hours (another success from Friday - I actually got myself together and called my job asking for shifts). In the hours between I am going to read something for pleasure, have a little to eat.


Tonight when I get home I will just have a shower and go to bed, maybe read a little in bed but try to go to bed before midnight.


I don't know, my mood is swinging like I don't know what lately - one minute I hate myself for doing nothing the next I am hopeful and thinking it's okay, there is still time and I can get through this. Yesterday when I managed not only to do anything useful all day and went to bed ridiculously late I could have hit myself with a hammer. Those precious hours of revision that I needed kept dwindling and suddenly there was no time.


I think it's making it even worse that the exams for which I am studying are theoretically useless - I am going to a different uni next year and only need to show up so it looks nice on paper. But I don't know, not studying for them are just leading me to let go of everything - time management is getting increasingly more difficult.

But anyway, I don't mean to think of that now - it seems my main drive is always guilt, it's nice to be free of it for a change.


And please, please, please let me go to bed early tonight! 


Though this be madness, yet there is method in't ~ Polonius (Hamlet)


Thank you for sharing so many of your virtues and successes. My sponsor always told me that is is easier to build on a virtue than it is a defect.

I know it is a scary method to consider, I too had the only "drive method" of guilt, and self flagulation  for not performing better- I felt like if I would settle for less then I would really go downhill.  It was what I learned- I don't know why- I guess it worked at some time in my life. 

Got an interesting message below I would like to share: 

Me, Myself, and Lies: A Thought Closet Makeover is a video-driven Bible study for women to encourage them to clean out the junk in their thoughts and replace these hidden negative thoughts and failures with positive truths from God’s word. Author Jennifer Rothschild shares practically and helpfully from her own life and from Scripture to show how every woman can turn her words, and her life, around for good. (7 sessions)
Words are powerful. Especially the words women speak to themselves. All too often, what they say to themselves when they lie in bed at night or look in the mirror in the morning is not even close to the words God wants them to speak to their souls. According to Rothschild, what we think about often has a ripple effect on nearly every area of our lives, “This Bible study, based on Jennifer's popular book: Self Talk, Soul Talk, teaches how to replace the lies you may have been telling yourself with the truth from God’s word.”

Interesting idea

 Thanks for the encouragement.

And I found the idea about how we are likely to tell ourselves things that work in 'destructive, unhelpeful' ways very interesting - if I understand it right. When I was in therapy for this that was one of the points she always commented on, why I made every task, every work into a punishment, something I felt guilty about or in other ways used negativity as motivations instead of for instance thinking if I do this think how proud I will be or something. 


Though this be madness, yet there is method in't ~ Polonius (Hamlet)

GeorgeSmiley 7 AM

Your day starter is one I desperately need to take in.

I've got to finish Project E today. I got very little done on it yesterday. 

And I keep distracting myself and running away from it.

But today is a new day and I can forgive myself ane make a new start.



The Hero's Code:

Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

Hope-Faith CI 6:00

Can only begin with 1st hour of this day. I feel very lost, discouraged and overwhelemed. Need to change those feelings to focused, motvated and in control.

  1. Am Home 
    1. Checked 2 e-mail
    2. setup new account
    3. Need to check DD's homework
    4. Breakfast
    5. Get Ready
    6. Get kids up
    7. Give kids proud of you pencil
  2. Work
    1. Principle
    2. Lesson Plans
    3. 9:00 Meeting
    4. Material for students in ISS
    5. Requested and sent info for address labels
    6. 1st class done
    7. Entered 1 AAW form
    8. Invits and AAW Cards cut
    9. 2nd class done
    10. Lunch
    11. Setup new wiki
    12. 3rd class done
    13. Address invits
    14. Names double checked
    15. New names added

Still focusing on what I have done not what needs to be done 

  1. Home
    1. Supper done
    2. Picked up and drop of LPGA tickets
    3. DD softball practice
    4. Watched 45 min tv -- thanks I needed that 
    5. dd and ds bath
    6. Diswasher loaded
    7. laundry sorted
    8. DD and DS homework checked
    9. update financials

Well I can not say that I accomplished any major goals but I did accomplish stuff. Done for the night 9:10

Keep trying till I make it.


Deej CI 07/05

Nice quotes Sarito.

This morning was a bit muddled as anticipated. But now...

  1. QuickR/EDMS training
  2. work on information notes - mine, then others

But a fair bit of procrastinating along the way

Sarito CL 05/07

self-care: prayer/meditation; spiritual reading; look for 2nd dr referral infomake 2nd dr appt; park run.

school: early morning class; kine; coaching; fix Mo stuff; Ba & Pro; review another So Di; So Ryt; So Meli Vol. 7.

household/logistics: appt; cook dinner; think about whether to cancel Sat. (write upsides & downsides on paper); cancelled Sat.