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Friday 24 April 2009

Today I can start where I am
Mind clear as water
Leave guilt behind
Take a step
One step is not a little more, but infinitely more, than nothing

courage            serenity             wisdom                 faith                  hope                    keeping on

Recycler CI 4:30pm EST

Hi Pro Buddies!

It's close to the end of the workday here. I'm wrapping things up, so it's a convenient moment to do my CI. After I get home tonight, I'm going to try to do a couple things quickly before going out, so it's easier to do my CI now.

Yay, I finally slept well last night! :) That has made my day a lot better! :) I got up this morning at the desired time, walked to the gym, did my cardio, ab exercises, and stretches.

At work I have done my projects for the day. I did an errand and wrote out a few things at lunchtime (plus ate lunch ;)

I've been updating my project list throughout the day, and can give it one more whirl before leaving.

After work: walk home. Look at Friday PA list: eat dinner, run dishwasher, clothes washer, etc. Go to my other 12-step program. I can't decide whether to do an errand on the way home from the mtg; I guess I'll decide how I feel.

6:25pm. I walked home, and heated & ate dinner. I know I'll be changing clothes in a few minutes, but mostly feel like puttering around. Maybe I'll combination puttering and doing easy chores before going to my meeting.

9:10pm. Home from meeting. Meeting was good. Had a good talk with 12-step friend afterward. I didn't do the errand on the way home. It was getting dark, and it's been a long enough day. I will relax for a minute, then go to bed.

Have a great weekend, everyone! :)



Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

laptop problems--and celebration

so my laptop was broke today. where the power cable plugs into the laptop was flakey, and not making a connection much of the time. I wound up disassembling almost the whole laptop. Thankfully we have a service center at work that helped me out, and it all should be ok.

but that's not the main story.

for the first time in my life, i kept track of how long it took me to work on this problem. I started at 8am, and it was solved to the point of having a plan of action by 1:30, and i just re-assembled it and logged in and now it's 2:47 so the re-assembly took 1 hr. When problems like this have arisen in the past i have always jumped in with both feet and lost track of time and the rest of my life. The problem with that is that i lose the ability to pick my head up, take stock, and make choices. Ie, should i try to fix this myself or call the service center. Should i look it up on line? How much/long should i spend on this approach before trying something else.

Now here's the irony--it was more painful at 1pm than usual, because i WAS keeping track of time, and i KNEW it had been 5 hours. Usually i would not even kno what time it was.

but i consider that great progress.

In part thanks to the support of you fine folks here, who's fellowship i dearly value. Please keep sharing here as i will so we can continue this marvelous, miraculous, cooperative recovery process.

The 2nd thing i want to celebrate is that i am essentially caught up at work to my published schedule. This is a rarity for me. Usually when tragedy (broken laptop--only way to connect at work) strikes, i am already behind at work and i have to deal w/ the stress of this NOT being a catch-up day, but rather a get-more-behind day. Today, this is an unexpected 1-day slip that could have happened to anyone. Such things are expected and accepted.

That is just too weird for me.

I give credit to HP for arranging for me to have changed this way. I constantly turn to HP for comfort and guidance and i am often feeling like i am able to see things i couldnt have seen w/o an external influence, and let go of things i feel too attached to to let go of. (never end a sentence w/ a preposition).

And i feel like if i read all the above 1.5 years ago, and i identified with the before picture, i would be very encouraged to know that there was an after picture. Well, more like a "during" picture, but ykwim.

so I hope anyone reading this and can identify with the before picture that you pay very close attn to the 12 steps, the tools, the fellowship here, and the idea of an HP helping you, because all these things give me great hope, and progress, and my wish is that they give you hope too.

the touch of the master's hand:

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

byGodsGrace todays CI

It always amazes me that even when I do something well (met deadline yesterday – BIG job) that the temptation to find fault or over think is so strong – or the thought of well that was just one thing, what about the rest! I am praying to resist that today and celebrate progress and not take away strength as I move to the next thing.

as chickadee's wonderful starter says:

courage            serenity             wisdom                 faith                  hope              keeping on

 Word and prayer for the day: Phil. 4:6-7 msg/nkjv

Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;  and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Soundtrack of the day: “So I pray, Bring me joy, bring me peace, Bring the chance to be free, Bring me anything that brings You glory”mercy me, bring the rain

My to do list: 

Read Bible/Pray, dd school, laundry, Call JobM schedule appt

Printer proof, email,

Page layout job3 – scan photos

job AB design/print, call for meeting time

dd pickup 2.30, 3p hair apptyay doing something nice for myself

clear work area after job1, Clear email/inbox for day 

order ink refill, order job2 sample supplies

Dear Life:

Ok, ok, I GET IT. Really, I do.  You don't have to keep beating me over my head about my shortcomings. Please stop. I will implement those ideas after I get home today. 

Before then, I need to get off the computer, get dressed and so forth, go pick up my check and go from there. 

I am halfway hoping that I'll be asked to work tonight, and halfway hoping I won't.  (more on that on another post). 

Missed a banquet last night because I wasn't home when Mom & Dad left, and didn't hear my cell phone go off when Dad called me with directions. Wasn't home because I procrastinated earlier this week on getting ready for Sunday School this Sunday morning, and it took much longer than I thought it would. 


Gentlemen, I believe we have much to discuss.
(Robert Lansing as Control, The Equalizer, Trial by Ordeal.)

re: dear life

This made me laugh, but just want to say that beating yourself up over past failures doesn't really help.   Let go of them, and look forward. 


There is a proper balance between not asking enough of oneself and asking or expecting too much.  - May Sarton

babarino check in

Love the starter! I can leave guilt behind!

put together info (in progress)

call L about research (sent email instead)

make list for action items for May projects (done)

turn in cc

call bw re two things (done)

research-any other angles I've missed?

send j res (done)

registration (in progress)

neg follow up

Journey 9:30

Good morning all, ran a bit late getting to work this morning because DH locked his keys in the car.  The pressure is off today because I finished my report yesterday (a day early!).   This is good, but not good for my productivity today because I feel like slacking off.   To avoid this, I will jump right in to Project TF.   I have a straightforward activity on that project that I can get started on immediately, and then I will set some deadlines for myself.   Somehow the deadlines I set for myself don't work as well as external deadlines but it helps anyway!

I've been to the gym, and yay my weight was down 1 lb. this morning after being stuck for a couple of weeks.  I've read email, checked my calendar, and made a start on my todo list but I need coffee before finishing . . . and my stomach is actually growling I'm so hungry! 

I have a meeting at 10 am so I plan to be done with my todo list and in the chatbox by 9:55.

I need to make 2 phone calls today about financial things, and although they aren't particularly stressful, this is something I really hate doing.   I've been putting these off since Wednesday already and I really want to make these calls today.   I mean I really don't want to do them, but I really want them done.  ykwim!


There is a proper balance between not asking enough of oneself and asking or expecting too much.  - May Sarton

Journey 5:30

As it turned out I spent most of the day working with the network guy and then adding his input to the report that I thought was finished yesterday, but that is ok because it wasn't due til today.  However, I only spent an hour on the task I wanted to work on today which was to do the straightforward task for Project TF.   But I did get started on that task and I am in a good place to pick it up and continue on Monday. 

I worked pretty well today, only goofed off a bit after lunch :)  I also made those two unpleasant phone calls, and they were indeed unpleasant but they are finished.  If I had not written in my checkin that I was going to make those calls today I think I would have found a way to postpone until Monday.  So yay, I'm glad that's behind me.

Now I'm leaving work and heading for my brother-in-law's house for dinner, should be fun. 

Have a great weekend, I am NOT working this weekend although I would like to spend a couple of hours catching up my email.  I hope I can see my grandson and catch up on housework too, although the house is not too much of a disaster in spite of working the past two weekends. 


There is a proper balance between not asking enough of oneself and asking or expecting too much.  - May Sarton

GeorgeSmiley 8:05 AM; 8:25 AM

I've been awake since 4 and now I have the sleepies.

I'm also hungry. I had a bagle an hour ago.

I will have a bowl of cereal, then make my list of MITs for today.


OK, my list of MITs

1: Project W-M-4

2: Project T-M

3: Project E

4: Project P-7

BUT FIRST: My weekly task overview



The Hero's Code:

Show up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go of the Outcome.

kromer 8:30 CI

Yesterday I ended up going to a dance class in the evening. Not the most responsible decision...

This means I need to focus today to get through all my work. Today has a lot of household chores (friend is coming this weekend and house needs to be moderately clean) and church tasks, but I'll get some schoolwork done also.

*Seminar 1-2
*Youth group 5:20-9:00

*Finish raw data processing for DG's project (worked on this some)
*Grocery shopping
*Clean bathroom, get new toilet seat
*Finish notes from mtg w/ DP + Harambee
*Prep speech for Sunday
*Call folks about potluck
*Read 2 papers for DG's project
*Emails to RH, DD, SM, MC; call to airline

Other tasks:
*Review 3 CSB lectures
*Cons. doc.
*Clean kitchen

Right now, I'm going make a grocery list, start my computer working on the raw data processing, start laundry, buy a toilet seat, go grocery shopping. 

kromer 12:15 CI

Making decent progress so far today...I've taken care of my chores (laundry, shopping, cleaning kitchen and bathroom).

Very soon, I need to head to student seminar. I'm going to try and call the airline first, then head out. After student seminar, I'll head to DG's lab, to work on reading papers and doing raw data processing. 

Update 2:40--called airline, went to student seminar, took a break for lunch afterwards, now I'm in DG's lab.

I don't feel like working...but I will feel good when this work is done! So I'm going to get to it.

What I need to do now is raw data analysis, which is is really simple...basically, what I want today is get lists of significantly changed probes+corresponding gene names/descriptions (and GO categories if I have time) for 4 datasets. Then, I'll send email to SM with a summary of my results, any questions, and a request to meet. This is a little dull, but it's just a few hours of dull work, I can deal with that! Before youth group, I also want to read 2 papers for DG's project, if I have time. Heading to chatbox now.   

God's Grace

Got called into sub today. I think it is the jolt I need. For me isolation leads to mental illness.

I really do love the kids so I am looking forward to it more than ever.

Will check in later.

Hope-Faith CI 6:15

Up and going and hour late. I can do this with out getting frustrated. Peace

  1. AM
    1. E-mail, Financials, Blog, CI update Post, coffee P&P To Do
    2. Dishwasher, Laundry
    3. Get ready
      1. Kids ups
      2. Shower
      3. Breakfast
      4. Powerwing
    4. Out the door
  2. Travel time
    1. Kids school
    2. Libary
    3. Bank
    4. Take money to DD
  3. Work
    1. Check yesterday's CI 
    2. Plan 2nd and 4th
    3. Plan 3rd
    4. Update Blog during lunch
    5. Copies P/C
    6. Update grades  2nd   3rd  4th
    7. Find 5.01 test
    8. Order certificates
    9. Start AAW spreadsheet
    10. E-mail -- thanks
    11. E-mail Italy
    12. Load Pics from camera
    13. e-mail pics
  4. Travel time 3:15-4:00
    1. Pick up prescription
    2. Ice Cream 
    3. DS to Mom change in plans did not happen
  5. Home by 4:00
    1. Iron
    2. Get DS Ready
    3. Load Pics
    4. Exercise -- Not sure how i will do this but I have to fit it in.
  6.  Leave 5:00
  7. DD Youth Chorale Presentation
  8. Dinner Out with DD and Dad
  9. Home
    1. Financial
    2. Blog
    3. CI and CO

Successful and productive day. Hope to have the same tomorrow


sammy ci :: 4:35 am


After a lot of good progress last night and the night before, my momentum has slowed down substantially. Mostly because I've come to the hardest part of project LCFA, but i think also because I'm short on sleep, and just put this project off for TOOOOOO LONG!!! I looked back at my calendar, and I had my first client meeting on February 6. I should have been working on this since February 6. What was I thinking?! I'm coming to realize that I'm not going to pull this one off. Hopefully I can turn it in late with minimal downgrading. I had this same instructor for one of my classes last semester, and she was very supportive of my efforts to overcome my problem. She's probably the only person who has taken my procrastination situation seriously. 

I really don't know why I let myself do this AGAIN. Whatever happens, I'll be glad when class is over today.... 

Sarito check in

Good Morning Everyone,

My checklist for today:

vacuum (done), wash kitchen floor (done), wash sheets, literature reading, 3 hours practice, coaching, to bed early...


bookending practice

sheets are in the washer.  bookending an hour of practice on prok.  will be interrupted at half hour mark to put laundry in dryer and put in new load.

ackk!  problem w/washer.  forgot to turn water on.  spent a lot of time trying to decipher instructions in a language i don't speak very well...  okay.  cooking some lunch and will try in get some more practice in.  was good while it lasted.  sigh. 

got in a bit more interrupted practice.  better than nothing, i suppose.  somehow, household chores took a lot longer and were more complicated than i expected.  appliances here take a bit of figuring out for me.  getting ready for appt and then heading to coaching.

Chick CI & intentions/thanks

project l

reponsible communic w ed.



e-mail stuff; post stuff


volunteer thing



committing to keeping my word to myself about first thing instead of not leaving.

--morning errands and library done

--household stuff done

work still ongoing

also need to do journal to tame fears


volunteer thing and phoning done.