I have been sick for a week or so, and have been sleeping too much, reading in bed, and generally unproductive. I am now working on sorting through all these office supplies. I notice that whereas I would have been willing to get rid of tons of them a week ago, with the economic situation I am wanting to keep everything, even through I don't want to. Ugh. A huge part of my procrastination issues has to do with organization and having too many belongings and inheriting my mother's inability to throw things out. And I think that 'fear of economic insecurity' is putting me back in my addictive behaviors. So, I am claiming my seat as a qualified member of this fellowship and thanking you all for being there.
Hi Pro Buddies!
Ready to turn in, here.
Last night I woke up at 2am and never really went back to sleep. I made it through work & everything today, but have been really tired. I am typing my CI, then will do my Home & Garden CI, then will go to bed early.
Have a great night, everyone!
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
An important religious day for me. I am home. My HP is suggesting that I should use the day to continue with backlog and that small but sincere observance will be suffiient. I will try to stay on task and be calm.
Yesterday I mentioned that something has to change. I find that I am furiously busy at work and seldom waste any time there. Frequently or usually it is difficult to take a coffee, lunch or even toilet break.
I find it extremely difficult/impossible to do stuff in the evenings, on weekends and on holidays.
I think tha the reasons for this are multiple.
Partly resisitance and resentment, partly tiredness and poor fitness and partly poor organisation due to procrastination and my own lack of skills.
I have been reading about EFT techniques (tapping) I might try this morning and during my breaks. Has any one else investigated this?
Here is a link to a video that deals specifically with procrastination
"Recovery from procrastination means doing what you say you're going to do, when you say you're going to do it."
I have found eft to be very helpful with pushing through the emotional blockage that puts me in compulsive procrastination behavior. However, I need to use it in conjunction with checkins, the chatbox, the suggestions of others in this fellowship and the 12 steps. I hope that you find it to be as helpful as I have.
I've read about EFT and tried it a time or two, however, meditation (when I do it) seems to be more beneficial to me.
I feel that there must be something to it though, as the EFT tapping points are known acupuncture sites. I don't understand why acupuncture or acupressure work, but obviously they do work for some people
A related thing: although I feel totally and completely silly when I do it, a guided chakra meditation - where you imagine each chakra and imagine clearing the blockages in each one - does me a lot of good.
three and a half hours later and I have only done my morning routine and tapping. I did waste about 45 minutes on TV and surfing but just living does seem to take up a lot of time!!!!
Resisitance is very high! I need to correct, prepare sort, do some household stuff....and all I really want to do is watch dr Phil!!! GRRRR
Good morning everyone. Most of today was planned for helping a friend, but that's postponed. On project for work wend well yesterday, so I think I'll begin there this morning. Then some errands. I hope today goes well with you.
(X)focus on project A
(X)drop off dry cleaning
(X)do two sctions of project B
(X)check in later
A late start this morning, but now I'm ready to work.
Now I'm going to tidy my room and set my MITs, back when that's done (10-15 min)
Scheduled: Probability class 2:30-4
MITs: 1)Do Bg reading on EA's work, email him to follow up
2) Document 3 datasets (boring! but I know it's important)
3) 4 questions from probability pset
I'd also like to get some chores/small tasks done if I have time: email CB, email CV and PJ, email SC, fix Cytoscape visualization, go over seminar schedule, clean bathroom, drop off direct deposit form, email about lab mtg. But these are lower priority.
I'm going to start by working on the probability pset for 1 hr and see how far I can get. Then I'll check back in.
Update 9:40--making good progress of probability pset, I'm going to work for another hour and I think I'll be able to get through the 4 problems. Then I'll head to lab and work on documenting datasets.
OK, going very slowly this morning, but I *finally* got through the 4 problems on the pset. I'm quickly going to email CB, CV, PJ, and SC and clean bathroom, then I'll head to lab...I think I can get 1 dataset documented before class.
Update 1:30--this is a major procrastination day! But I finally sent the emails, cleaned the bathroom and had some lunch...now I'm going to head to lab.
Today is not going well so far, let's see if I can turn this around. (I went to class, but haven't done anything else productive since my last checkin...wasted almost an hour web-surfing).
I'm having a hard time getting *anything* done, so I'm going to spend 30 min working on my pset (because that seems more doable than my MITs, and is productive if not super-important). Then I'll check back in and see if I can't switch to something more important.
Thanks for the encouragement Convalaria!
I didn't manage to switch to something more important, but I did get through 2 problem set problems, and kept decent concentration. So I feel OK.
You're absolutely right about using the chatbox/breaking it down. It seems obvious but I when I'm in the midst of procrastinating.
I want to get some dinner soon (since I've been falling into a bad habit of just snacking in lab), and some real relaxation (since often websurfing/bad procrastination comes from not allowing myself a break). But first I'm going to microburst my 2 remaining MITs: I'm going to print 2 articles from EA's lab, and I'm going to choose which datasets I want to document.
After dinner/a break (around 8:30) I'll come back, break stuff down into small chunks and work in the chatbox (and with a timer if I need it).
I'm going to quickly microburst
I did microbursts and had a healthy dinner and came home, but since then have just been wasting time.
I'm feeling a lot of resistance right now. I'm going to just read 1 page of 1 paper in the chatbox. If it's awful I can stop after that.
Worked in the chatbox and finished almost all of MIT #1 (it's late enough that I don't trust myself to compose a coherent email to prof. EA, so I this will need to wait until tomorrow, but the hard work is done).
Earlier today I'd done MIT #3 (plus some extra pset problems) and microbursted MIT #2
Overall a pretty bad day, but I'm proud of the way that I salvaged it from total waste, and of how I directed what little focus I had toward my MITs.
Thanks to everyone for being here!
You are extrememly productive kromer and an inspiration to me! Sometimes doing someting that is not urgent is better than doing nothing and you are doing this.
At the risk of giving gratitious advice and from someone that is frequently not able to implement this....Is is possible to break down your meeting preparation into baby steps and chat yourself through this?
my very best wishes to you kromer
starting the morning with a lot of anxiety. Will spend 15 minutes each on four IT/UTs, pulling the folders and getting started--then report back; files pulled, have started. all out, still going.
Today: aim to stay on track in afternoon instead of losing focus after break.
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