Hello. I just registered on this site today after sitting in my office all day doing everything BUT my paperwork. I just can't seem to start...I've procrastinated to the point of exhaustion , and now it's time to go home...I'm really tired from not doing anything I should and everything I shouldn't and I still have to go grocery shopping and pick up supplies for work tomorrow (and go home and pretend I was productive...ugh). Sometimes I feel like it takes every ouce of energy I have just to not stare into space...I'm super anxious...about to jump out of my skin. Anxiety and guilt...I know it would all be better if I'd just start and stay on task. It's not like I've never done it before, but it never fails; I fall right back into the same pattern of letting things build up again. I've been like this all my life: sometimes really productive, producing excellent quality work, then falling behind again. I wonder if I can ever be consistent. There are so many things I want to do.
Anyway, thanks for providing me with a place to rant. I've always thought that one day I'd pull it all together and develop healthy habits, but I'm discouraged. What stops me from doing EASY stuff? Don't mean to sound like a complete screw up...most people have no idea how much this affects me.
I haven't looked around the site that much today (too nervous), but I'd appreciate all the help I can get.