My name is Ben, I am a recent college graduate who really suffers from chronic procratination. Procrastinating has taken a toll on my schoolwork, jobs, and relationships. I often find myself spending more time preparing to work than actually working. Or I will tell myself that I will do something quick before starting i.e. check my email, read the news, browse the internet. I then get behind on whatever I am doing until I have so much anxiety from being behind that I start. Once I actually start working I find that I can work long periods and also very quickly. I have found that procrastination leads me into addiction with computer games and television. Then I am able to say I'll play for 10 more minutes or watch one more show. Then hours later I find myself still doing that and very disappointed in myself for lack of self-discipline. I know the entire time that I need to stop but I just can't which is incredibly frustrating.
College was very difficult, Even though I wanted to be studious I would put off homework and studying until I was in a panic mode. This combined with a overly optimistic sense of how long an assignment takes ended up with many assignments half-finished or poorly done. Luckily most of my classes were heavily weighted with tests which allowed me to sneak by with poor homework grades.
Procrastination is starting to really take a toll in my current life in many areas. At my current summer job working on a Flash website for a school I often find myself behind on deadlines and promising myself that I'll work harder or longer the next day. I also wait until I am a little late to leave for work. It is also taking a toll looking for a full-time job for after the summer. I have extreme difficultly calling people back. Problems with putting off phone calls has really hurt my relationships with friends and family while being away at college.
I am very frustrated with myself but I am determined to do better. I know that I can accomplish tasks because of previous experiences where someone has set reasonable expectations and timelines for me. I look forward to participating on this site. For once I see people who struggle with procrastination in a similar way I do.