Anything but what I need to do
I'm wondering if this is even vaguely familiar to anyone else. I've been to psychiatrists and they just say "That's interesting, never heard that one before." And then have no clue.
Essentially I can do almost anything OTHER THAN what I need to do. Even when the tasks are things that I really enjoy and would get a lot of reward for doing it, I'll find something, anything else, to occupy my time. It's gone on since childhood and of late gotten much worse. I present well at work and speak well. No one has noticed that I've done almost no productive work in a VERY long time. I can quickly get together some material and appear knowledgeable for a meeting, am very intelligent, and look successful.
Recently I joined a 12 step group that includes all sorts of problems but I'm not finding that helpful.
Now 1:45 pm. Have done no work yet today. So I'll go out and exercise.
If I could just get myself to do even a small amount of work, and a small amount of studying on some certification I really want, it would be a "mechiah."
Does this sound familiar to anyone?