Sunday 30 August 2020

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I've gotten to the point that I am grossed out by items in my refrigerator that are not going bad at all.  I just have lost my desire to eat.  I think I may need exercise to develop a palate for food again, instead of just randomly eating things in teh fridge.  I did a month of a Media Fast.  And....well, I still managed to while the day away with media today.  So I don't think media is my real problem if I am to break it down.  It's procrastination.  It's THIS illness . This is my core issue.  Nonetheless I'm working on step work for media.

I want to be fit again.  I want to run.  I really do.  I was feeling guilty all weekend, b/c I was afraid. But I am reading a book lately that I find inspiring.  It said to take my current salary, multiple it by 2 or another number.  Ask myself, if I keep doing what i'm doing can I get to that multiple of my salary in five years?  Multiply the salary by 2 until I cannot get that salary in 5 years doing what I'm doing now.  Then change my habits until I am on track to meet that multiple.  That's how to think big.  But right now, I'm thinking small with exercise, and planning to run before work, and if I do not get to, I'll run right after my meeting.