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Feelings Dump- no replies please

I wanted to create this topic as a space for people to just write through their feelings as a way of getting to their productivity, without having to worry about exposing themselves to others or being confronted with feedback. 

tired

ooooookay.

i have a lot of work to do, a lot of loose ends to tie up and routines to restore, but i am tired. 

so the question is whether or not to try to get a lot done today or to try to have a real day off. 

maybe i will just try to do whatever i feel like doing. 

email to lawyer feelings

why am i so terrified to work on this email?

everything is totally fine. i have all the things i need. i guess it's just that all my previous interactions with her have been kind of fraught. 

first thing i will do is make a list of what i think i need and then compare it to what's in my folder from 2017

oh i get it now. i have to lay out my plan for making money, but the way i actually plan to make money, which i know is a reliable plan, is likely not to be convincing to at least some bureaucrats. so i have to figure out what to do about that, and it makes me feel under a judgmental microscope. 

tired

ooooooookay i am supertired and in no mood to be trying to organize my thoughts to contact my lawyer. i don't think i can do it. successfully putting on a load of laundry and remembering all the non-clothes-ruining things that need to be done *also seems impossible. 

so i think it might be better to focus on doing a rehab practice today. 

 

am dump

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I wanted to create this topic as a space for people to just write through their feelings as a way of getting to their productivity, without having to worry about exposing themselves to others or being confronted with feedback. 

 

ok so yesterday was one of those days that was really productive but ended shittily so it all felt very unsatisfying and depressing. 

i am kind of in the middle of a sort of breakup, and i am both not getting what i want from my friend (enthusiasm and forward-looking positivity about the breakup) and afraid that i'm not giving him what he needs. so i guess i can just check on him later today via text to make sure he's okay. and i'll be okay.

i'm also worried that my ballet teacher is mad at me. but if he is i can always study with someone else.

and i'm in the middle of doing some accounting that looks suspiciously positive, and i can't figure out how to account for this one deficit. but i'll probably figure that out.

ok i think i can make my check-in list now. today i really need to do ballet, practice, and get caught up on practice notes. it would be great to also finish my end of month accounting. i also need to figure out father's day.