A new approach for dealing with fears/avoidance: turning them into Questions

Saw my old thread title hanging over there on the side ---> and thought I'd revisit it. 

I am knee-deep in many "projects" that all need to be done essentially at the same time (now). 

I'm feeling overwhelmed and a lot of it is because of the fear of what answers I actually get when I do ask those questions. What will happen if I find myself with answers I don't like? Why do I always expect the worst, instead of seeing each inquiry as just an opportunity to get info that could help me one way or another? 

I am so tired of what-if-ing every single thing. 

For God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. 

Thank you Jay and movingalong for bumping my old thread. I guess I needed to see this again. Totally forgot about it. I've been in a really bad depression so I will look into this again.  

[POSTING ON ONE OF MY OLD THREADS UNTIL FORUM FIXED]

I'm writing this thread to get me going in the right direction to clean up my life.

I've neglected a ton of things in the past 2 years since the eviction. 

I'm frustrated that though I've been employed with a roof over my head
for a whole year (certainly beats where I was this time last year) -- I
am not where I want to be. Progress, yes ... but I deserve better than
this. 

My underearning/poverty mentality took over during these years because
of the eviction, and it's time to shed that mindset! It is NOT who I am
or what I am worth. 

I finally feel ready to start upgrading, but there's so much that I keep
writing up to-do lists to no avail, because rarely any of it is getting
done! The tasks just keep swimming around in my head. What to do first?
What's most important when EVERYTHING is important??? 

So I'm back to sort this out. 

I could sit here and plan and write more lists and priorities but where would it get me? going round and round ... 

So ... I'll just start with the core basics. Things that involve maintenance related to my SAFETY and MY LIFE. 

If I feel avoidant, here's my rule: BREAK IT DOWN. If I'm not taking the
action, or making the phone call, it means there is SOMETHING YET TO
PREPARE TO MAKE ME FEEL MORE COMFORTABLE. When I've prepared all I can, I
have to then just make the choice to trust in God and JUMP, come what
may. If God be for me, who can be against me? 

So, up first: 

1. Fix the car part. Stakes are high with this: risking car damage and
my physical life. Both could cost me money and my person.     DONE!!!

2. Get the oll change and put in the brake fluid. I have now waited
longer than EVER IN MY LIFE to get the freakin' oil for my engine. The
car is now old with high mileage. Again, for my safety, I need to get
this done. I also depend on this car for my income. 

3. Get the water filters. Again, this is risky. The water here is
clearly bad, and it's unacceptable for me to live with bad water when I
can easily buy some filters. 

WHY THE SELF-NEGLECT? What is this avoidance of self-care all about? 

-Not wanting the responsibility, and hoping "someone else" will fix it
for me (as in family of origin). News Flash: I am an ADULT. I am
responsible for taking care of my things!

-Fear of getting screwed somehow by auto mechanics. But what's worse, an
accident or losing my life? Everyone needs to maintain their cars and
get work done by male contractors. If God be for me, who can be against
me? What am I afraid of? There's only so much they can charge me. I know
where to go. I've done it before and no one has ever hurt me. So,
what's the issue? 

-Not wanting to deal with the "hassle" ... so what's worse: spending a
few hours to let a mechanic fix it and be done with it, or letting my
car be damaged far worse and all the havoc that goes with that? 

Can I accept that I don't live in a fantasy land where buttons are
pressed and these things are magically done for me? Can I accept life on
life's terms, that I live in a physical world that requires
maintenance? Can I "JUST GO WITH IT"??? 

I ask the Lord Jesus to send his Holy Spirit upon me and change my mind
and heart about all this so that I can move forward with my life, which
brings another point: Do I simply not want to move forward because
success involves too much adult responsibility? Am I afraid of being an
adult? Did this happen because of the early childhood boundaries in my
life that were crossed that I now believe stunted my emotional growth,
to make me fearful and defensive? 

Holy Spirit, give me answers, solutions, a way of coping with this compulsion to avoid dealing with life. Amen.