Friday 24th May 2013

Please do not leave advice or feedback.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome.

The commitment is thirty minutes of exercise before midnight of any of
the following format: running, jogging, a combination of
running-walking-jogging, swimming, walking, attending a fitness class
(something that requires me to leave the house), stationary biking,
biking, dance class, aerobic class, yoga, karate (or other martial
arts).  I have been having a little bit of a problem with getting myself
to do the running plan consistently.  I typically result in walking,
which is fine; that's infintely better than nothing at all.  But, I do
want to provide a circumstance for myself to run, if once I get to the
gym or "get out there" I feel up to it.  So, I am going to restart the
running plan today, and wherever I start with the run/walk combination,
that will be where I'm at.  I'm changing the commitment in the following
way: on days when I am assigned to run by the running training program,
I need to wear my running clothes.  I do not actually have to run, but I
need to wear those clothes on running days. If If I do not run, I will
wear (or bring) the running clothes on each day until I do the assigned
training, and then the schedule will resume from that day.  I am doing
this because:

1. My main reason for continuing is that I want to move forward with my
   running/jogging plan.  I made some progress last week of running 2
   minutes, walking2 minutes, repeating that seven times, but I want to
   finish that week within a timely period and move on to running 2 minutes
   and walking 1 minute (times 10).  The ultimate goal is to be able to
   run/jog for 30 minutes.  I want to run a marathon at the end of this
   year or January of next.  (I have always wanted to run the Honolulu
   Marathon; I don't even know if this is something I can do, but I want to
   do it.)  I have year after year pledging to do a second marathon and
   have not, b/c I did not make headway on my running plan.
2. I feel that running or exercise will force me to own up to other
   commitments in my life, because challenges in the running sphere force
   me to have other commitments in my life met so that I can exercise
   unimpeded and feel good that my investment in myself is going somewhere.
3. I want to feel good about myself when I go outside, and
4. I don't trust myself to exercise at the end of the day or at some point
   before midnight unless I make the commitment here to do it.  
5. Being accountable to others by making a commitment here, helps me to be accountable to myself.
6. The objective is to stick to the running plan by doing at least one
   training unit per day of the 28-week running plan I came up with, which
   is a slower version of the eight-week Rodale run/walk plan.  
7. practicicing being on time with this commitment, will assist me in being on time in other areas.
8. It will also help me to practice willpower for other activities that require energy.
9. Exercise helps me to feel comfortable in what I am doing, b/c I am not
   constantly fidgeting at my desk or feeling like I SHOULD be
   running/swimming/walking or getting out in the sun or that I SHOULD have
   done those things last night.
10. Exericse helps me to avoid feelings of not  being adequate, because I
    have confidence in myself as a person interacting with others.
11. I want to build trust in myself by committing to something small that
    positively affects my whole life.  Since I'm making a promise here to do
    it, that's going to help me to keep my promise to myself so that I have
    faith in myself that at some point during the day I will exericse,
    instead of feeling like crap because I don't even trust myself to get to
    the gym or go on a walk.
12. Exercise makes everything tighter, which makes me feel more comfortable
    with myself and helps me to be able to live with myself.
13. I want to be able to wear the clothes in my closet, and throw out the ones that are not useful to me.

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Ran 1 minute, walked 2 minutes, times 10.  Biked 4 minutes forward and 2 minutes backward.  Walked about 7 minutes.

Show up (done), exer, plan

Great strater Jalla, thanks 10 ways to love ourselves; OARECOVERY GROUP:

DAY ONE

~ ~ STOP ALL CRITICISM ~ ~

CRITICISM NEVER CHANGES A THING. 
REFUSE TO CRITICIZE YOURSELF. 
ACCEPT YOURSELF EXACTLY AS YOU ARE.
EVERYBODY CHANGES. 
WHEN YOU CRITICIZE YOURSELF,
YOUR CHANGES ARE NEGATIVE. 
WHEN YOU APPROVE OF YOURSELF, 
YOUR CHANGES ARE POSITIVE

Thank you Jaila, I really need that reminder today as I've been beating myslef up about the mess I'm in.

 I'm going to try posting on here regularly again as It's helped a lot in the past.

8.45am

• 2 sets of paper to N
• urgent AH letter
• check AH request list

9.30am - meeting wasted journey (1hr round trip) as client didn't attend.  but it gives me an extra hour to do admin.

11.10am

• report for nursery
• finish 8.45 list

12MD

• prepare papers for this afternoon - pleasant surprise: all reports done!
• lunch if you call 2 bars of chocolate and 2 satsuma's lunch!
• ring estate agent
• prescriptions
• phone calls 

1.30 - meeting

4pm

• finish 12MD list 
• 1 report
• DVD review
• 1 report

H.

You being kind to me, jalla, is a very good start!

7.30 cafe w notebook & either 30 Day or Art of Indirection

 and cards 

put Internet to bed

seal off living room 

9-12 write with poms 

send cards to B and C and R  

12.30 lunch with k 

prov w what ... Still in flux ......

Prep for tonight

work out weekend tasks

6 meet E ..where?

Home by 10

check in

bed by 11

THINGS I DID WELL TODAY

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR