Wednesday 10th April 2013

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank jack for starting this trend.

Things I have done today

1. Went to the 5:45 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

2. Went to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting

Things I will do today

1. Eat breakfast

2. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting

3. Go to the 9 a.m. telephone ACA meeting

4. Take shower

5. Go to the 12 noon telephone ACA meeting

6. Go to the 1 p.m. telephone OA meeting

7. Cook and eat lunch

8. Go to the 3 p.m. telephone CLA meeting

9. Get dressed

10. Fix dinner

11. Go to work at 5:30 p.m.

12. Eat dinner

Thanks for letting me share

Abstinence from unplanned time.

• The one thing, the only thing, i can do impulsively is write something on my todo list.
• The one thing, the only thing, i can do off plan is recovery, something to maintain my sobriety, when tempted. I have come to believe that it is more important to maintain sobriety than to get things done.

Abstinence from relying on self.

We reviewed our fears thoroughly. We put them on paper, even though we had no resentment in connection with them. We asked ourselves why we had them. Wasn't it because self-reliance failed us? Self-reliance was good as far as it went, but it didn't go far enough. Some of us once had great self-confidence, but it didn't fully solve the fear problem, or any other. When it made us cocky, it was worse.

Perhaps there is a better way - we think so. For we are now on a different basis; the basis of trusting and relying upon God. We trust infinite God rather than our finite selves. We are in the world to play the role He assigns. Just to the extent that we do as we think He would have us, and humbly rely on Him, does He enable us to match calamity with serenity.

We never apologize to anyone for depending upon our Creator. We can laugh at those who think spirituality the way of weakness. Paradoxically, it is the way of strength. The verdict of the ages is that faith means courage. All men of faith have courage. They trust their God. We never apologize for God. Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. At once, we commence to outgrow fear. p68 AA Big Book. http://anonpress.org/bb/Page_68.htm

(too long. put this in my bookmarks instead, but do only in a designated break. until then, tolerate imperfection)

9:53am :
It's been 0hrs 14min since i last got distracted.
It's been 19hrs 23min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (1hr 47min)
It's been 19hrs 23min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 47min)
It's been 6days 07hrs 21min since i last went on an off-plan bender >2hrs (2hr 25min).
It's been 134days 07hrs 03min since i last went on an off-plan bender >3hrs (6hrs).
It's been 151 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1day
It's been ~195 days since i last went on an off-plan bender >1week
It's been 15days 00hrs 29min since i last relied on self.

:) ci
:) start Instant Boss
:) v task
:) sched
:) quiet time
:) r task
:) s task
:) t task
:) 11am pa phone mtg
:) sort tasks
j task, skip
prj task, skip
pud norton
pud fan
jd hp nb install hw
ka wrk - kb rtn followup
ka wrk - sp3
ka wrk - ck pdf write
kuf wrk - recontact
ebands - nx week
p wrk
client ku sat?
later: g wrk
later: ht task
:-( put away clothes
:) reflection
:) pre-plan tmrw

2:10pm : It's been 0hrs 56min since i last got distracted.

1:15am late night : end of day is often v hard 4 me :
It's been 0hrs 1min since i last got distracted.
It's been 0hrs 1min since i last went on an off-plan bender >15min (1hr 14min)
It's been 0hrs 1min since i last went on an off-plan bender >1hr (1hr 14min)

THINGS I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER

not gone on a 1hr 14min bender
not lost trust in God.

THINGS I AM GRATEFUL FOR (everything i "did well" comes from god, either thru gifts he's given me or the way he's transformed me)

prayer. being healed from being angry
sp3 install itself went well.
updates to satellite went well.
i did the hp call (didnt want to)
i persevered even tho i was feeling bad.

Thanks very much for the great starter Jack.

Today needs to be a quiet rest not do to much day purposely as been very busy few weeks. I need to take it easy today , reflect and try to rebalance after lots of change and stress.

• readings
• t
• pool and rehab
• rest
• cook for week  
• write journal
• HIO