Two years ago, I purchased the entire CD collection from http://thinkTQ.com, hoping that I could find some way to make a change from procrastinating, to making a real difference in my life. Maybe if I had started working on it then, I wouldn't be where I am now, but yeah, here I am.
I did not follow their instructions on doing the work that was needed, in the order that was suggested, and even listening to the CD's was sporatic. Demand resistance hit hard! Here were total strangers telling me what I "should" be doing, and I don't do "shoulds" very well - if at all, actually, without a lot of bitterness.
I finally decided - just 2 months ago - that since I'd spent some serious money on this program, that it was high time I started doing something with it -- or maybe that is my father's voice I hear, but whatever - I need some sort of guidance to learn what I need to do, since both of my parents were authoritative/unavailable, and both were physically and mentally abusive.
From my father - I wasn't good enough because I wasn't born a male - and therefore, useless and not worthy of love. From my mother - we were the "wrong" side of the family, because we weren't rolling in money. (I don't know that the other side is, except that there are 3 doctors in the family, and she associates their occupations with "a ton of money.") I also wasn't her little dress-up in frilly clothes, and sit still while the boys hopped around in mud puddles kind of girl either! Oh hell-a no! Give me a mud puddle any day of the week! ::wink:: ::lol::
I think today, I live in poverty (and always have) because of her constant drilling that we weren't worthy of having more, and I have a true fear of money. Forget that it would be great not to worry about how I'm going to pay my bills, or get my medical needs met, buy the right kinds of food, or what have you! I'm not good enough to make more -- And I KNOW that is a crock of you-know-what! It all makes me a bit sick thinking about it.
Anyhow, I read the book from ThinkTQ: Success on Purpose -- struggled through it, honestly, because it smacks of "get off your kiester and get busy," and I wrote out my personal mission. From there, I jumped over to Steven Covey's 7 Habits of Highly Effective People and then to David Allen's Getting Things Done. I am now working out what I want from each role in my life - as mother, grandmother, community member, career, and so on, but I am afraid.
Perhaps I've just grown used to the constant struggling I've always done, but getting outside of my comfort zone is going to be the only way I can break this procrastination habit - if that is even possible.
You do not have to buy their program. They have a daily lesson on the site that takes all of 5-10 minutes to read or study, a short test you can take, and they include 3 thought-provoking actions for the day, which (for me at least), turns your stinkin' thinking around.
May the Universe bless us with the spirit of change. May we be greeted with the rising sun to give us a chance to improve our lives. May we win this battle against our inner demons. May we be granted abundance in our lives so that we can help others.