to start (?!).... I've been a procrastinator all my life, though at various
points I have gotten through by the skin of my teeth at other times I've destroyed
opportunities, lost jobs and most hurtfully refuted other peoples faith in me
by consistently not doing. I fear I am in the middle of that again now.
am aware that not doing feels worse than doing most of the time for me and yet
I sit here day after day, avoiding and squirming and never feeling relief. My
main feeling is of shame.
write list, set timers, use earplugs and block the internet, with varying success.
I was particularly interested to read here about the intersection with other addictive
behaviours and I feel that there is a little loop of addiction in this procrastination
for me. Likewise I have struggled with various eating disorders in my life, for
the last 5 years this has predominantly been binge eating, which ties in and is
used as a coping mechanism/driver for procrastination for me.
I feel that I am wasting my life and observing that waste in real time. I am
interested in the idea of a 12 step approach, maybe out of perversity because I
find structure so hard. I would be very interested in hearing people's experiences.
It's lonely this procrastination life.