Hi, I'm new to PA, but a lifelong procrastinator!

It's great to be here. A little about myself:

I'm a 40-something woman who started recovery officially about 4 months ago, with Codependents Anonymous. My main issue was love/fantasy addiction. 

Well, now I'm realizing all the other issues I have, and as part of my codependency, AVOIDANCE is the chief way I act out in my life. I am a master avoider/procrastinator/isolator, and it has ruined my life. Of course the effects of that are also the following: underearning (I joined UA too), debting (not ready to even deal with the debt yet, not even close), and cluttering (I joined CLA but not quite ready to tackle that just yet either). 

I need to deal with my procrastination/avoidance behaviors immediately because I'm on another cycle of underearning and living in fear daily because I feel paralyzed to work or apply for jobs. I just can't do it. I have an opportunity daily to earn some income freelancing, but I don't like it, dont' like working at all,, and can't get myself to sit down and do it. My Higher Power is my only hope right now, through these programs. 

 I hope this can help me. Thank you!