Please help me email my mum!
I'm expecting an important health-related email from my mum this week, and she'll be very upset indeed if I don't reply.
I have a huge amount of resistance to interacting with my parents - email is the only contact we have at the moment, and I often don't reply to emails for weeks or months. Probably goes without saying on this forum, but please could I ask that you don't try to make me feel more guilty about this than I already do, because it'll make it even harder for me to face dealing with it.
She gave me the option of not receiving the email if I thought I wouldn't be able to reply, but I told her I would. I'm now very anxious about managing it and want to set up as many safeguards as possible to make sure I do. I'm not sure when the email will arrive, but I think giving myself a 48-hour window to reply is reasonable.
So basically, I'm asking for temporary buddies to give me whatever amount and form of support you're willing to give with this. Things that would help include:
Asking me about it when you see me on the chatbox
Sending me a private message (or email if you know my email) asking if I've received the email and if I've replied to it
Making sure that I don't 'disappear'. I'm afraid that if I get the email and have a lot of resistance to replying, I might not even show up on PA. If I don't show up, you can't help me. So if you don't see me around one day, please, please contact me via message or email to check on me.
Being there to chat through writing the email with me if I need it
Generally being encouraging and telling me I can do it
I know this is a lot of hand-holding I'm asking for, but I'm just so worried that I might not manage this, and I really want to know I'm not alone! Thanks for reading this far. xx