Dreaming of a life free from procrastination...

Hi,

I've been lurking on these forums for a while now and have found a lot of comfort from reading the posts of others. It's a huge relief to know that I'm not the only one struggling with the frustrations of chronic (and in my case I really mean CHRONIC!) procrastination.

I have come to a point in my life where I feel that I cannot continue to exist as I have been up to now. I'll be 30 soon (OK - not too ancient...) and am terrified that I am going to procrastinate away the rest of my life as I have done the preceding 10+ years.

Although I have managed to achieve many of the things that society says I 'should' have achieved (decent education, semi-successful career etc.), it has been a constant battle against myself and my need to procrastinate and, as a result, has been at the expense of any sense of satsfaction or pleasure that I might otherwise have had. Why do I have to force myself to do the things that seem to come so naturally to others?

At this point, my procrastination has got so bad that I am genuinely afraid that my job might be at risk. I am a good employee in many ways but if my boss knew the true extent of my constant putting-off of tasks then I'm sure I'd be fired.

I have recently begun a masters degree in addition to my job and am determined that I won't let procrastination ruin my chances. However, I've already noticed some of my dysfunctional behaviours creeping in whenever I sit down to study. I really think that the daily check-ins could be a great tool to help me overcome this - I just hope that I can persuade myself to use them regularly!!

Well, I doubt anyone has read down this far, but setting this all down in writing has felt pretty good. Maybe it's the first step on the road to recovery.

Thanks,

C