Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Tuesday November 23, 2010

tuesday check in

I am writing this on Weds since I didn't write in the check in yesterday. I want to keep up my daily posts.

What did I do on Tues? I checked in on chat and checked in with PA friend (missed another one but did call) -- but didn't do the rest of my basics (gratitudes, prayer, affirmation and planning to plan.

Without checking in, I see I did let the day get away from me without a plan (I spent the day with my son who is out of school and was also exhausted). 

I see that when I get up in the morning, I need to avoid  the internet or spend minimal time on it except for checking in here and checking my work. Too easy to let time slip away.  I spent 1 hour on it reading the news today when I have a lot to do today.

tracy-la

clement ci

3:09am going to chat to get some work done.

3:35am (26 min, not horrible) whew. was hard. but i'm done. praise god for helping me, enabling me, inspiring me.

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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748

"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb

fudoshin: 4:33pm: checkin

Please do not leave advice.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

                                                                                                                      

 

About forty-five minutes ago I deleted my dating account sites.  I had to do this, because I was staying up all night on these sites trying to avoid feeling lonely or avoid feeling at all.  I am powerless over my addiction.  I think one of the problems of this addiction is that it prevents me from knowing what to do first, b/c I have so many things I need to do.  I think I'm going to start working the steps in this program.  I need to acknowledge that if I allow myself to fall behind then I have difficulty making up the work, and--  I cannot be perfectionist who needs all to be done before I move on with my life.  Sometimes something is better than nothing.  I also need to not set myself up for failure, vis a vis, feeling like I have to do x, y and z instead of taking it easy.

fudoshin: 4:42pm: dating isn't dating if it's procrastination

Please do not leave advice.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

                                                                                                                  

 

Here's what I'm telling myself, since a lot of my situation is linked to spending too much time on dating/fantasy/obsession: I am not on the dating sites right now because dating while my life is in disarray is not very pointful.  I mean, it's not dating.  I'm not saying I need to be perfect, but I cannot expect it to work out with someone who I don't even know if I like, if I haven't even done my homework and don't know what I'm going to do for food.  That's not dating.  That's ignoring my life problems in order to avoid pain, which has its benefits to a certain extent.  I mean, sometimes acting out behavior is a way of avoiding pain, when the pain is too hard to take, but I realize that by continuing on the dating site at this moment, I'm not really dating, b/c I'm not capable of being emotionally present for anyone until I've been emotionally present for myself.  I cannot interact with people until I get some healing from this disease,  as well as I want to.

fudoshin: 4:37pm: sponsorship

Please do not leave advice.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome. 

                                                                                                            

 

If anyone has done the steps in any program and wishes to oversee my stepwork here or work with me to do the steps, please let me know.

Finding a way check in (again)

 

It's now 9.05 am (24/11/100 and I was here at 9 am which was my goal (not really very early!) but was reading posts.

To anyone that was confused by the dates, I am 10 to 14 hours ahead of most of you in my time zone so thought I'd start the thread yesterday. Got the date wrong, couldn't work out how to delete it so started another thread with the correct date. Later managed to delete the wrong thread but some saw it before it went.

Anyway, here to do some work so time to post my list:

  • 30 min blocks work on report for B (strong urges to avoid this - oh no not another report - it's my main paid work and not really that hard!) Smile  Smile Smile Smile Smile Smile Smile Smile Reached my goal for today!
  • phone calls x 2 re B - do I really need to call them? suddenly thinking that maybe it's not just avoidance - need to evaluate if there is a real need or if I'm just making extra work for myself. Hmmm...
  • washing 
  • exercises
  • ice pack
  • ring doctor
  • text J 
  • dishes
  • cook meal
  • piano

Thanks to you all for being here.

Katelyn-Anne's Check-In

    I'm so mad at myself today. Why do I just sit here, doing nothing, when there are a gazillion things that need to be done? I want to get things done. I don't want to waste day after day doing nothing. I really don't. So why do I? Why is it such a huge effort for me to even write this list? Ugh. I really hate myself right now.

- Practice french (done)

- Shower 

- Clean up living room

- Finish laundry

- Take out garbage (done)

- Meditate

- Wrap presents

- Cat litter (done)

- Throw out expired food in fridge (done)   

           "Procrastination is like masturbation; in the end you're just screwing yourself"

Hey ((((Ian)))) PRAYERS COMING YOUR WAY!!

Didn't want to ruin you being able to edit your posting. Just wanted to pass along that I relate with what you are saying and feeling. So happy you are here with us and sharing. Please keep coming, we need you!!!!

♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's emotional & physical healing.♥

@hope4meandu :)

Thanks - really appreciate your words.

Ian's daily renewal / to-do list 11.23

DAILY RENEWAL

  •  I'm powerless over:
    • hiding from reality, living small.
    • perfectionism,
    • procrastination,
    • wanting to not feel intensely uncomfortable feelings (fear, despair, etc),
    • using (and warping) my natural, "god"-given instincts, using substances, using behaviors to avoid uncomfortable feelings.
    • I can't manage my life. I quit. I'm out of management.
  • I want to be sober today. For work issues, these are the inner-circle behaviors I want to avoid:
    • sleeping to avoid work/reality
    • using my sexuality to avoid work/reality
    • working without a clear plan -- a prioritized to-do list, a time-boxed calendar
    • working outside the PA Chatbox -- e.g., without bookending each task
    • staying in vague, unstructured time during business hours (question that came up this morning: is there *any* instance where being in vagueness is sober behavior? Being in vagueness is certainly a "middle circle" behavior for me...)
    • making impulsive decisions about what to do, or work on, during business hours — to have any chance of choosing the next right action, when buffetted by impulse I always need to stop, breathe, surrender, pray.
    • failure to record hours with a timer during business hours
    • failure to estimate how much time a task will take (no matter how many times I get it wrong, I want to keep trying)
    • failure to scope a project
    • engaging in perfectionism: seeking immunity from disapproval/judgment via a strategy of producing nothing until I feel total mastery over the subject, and then chipping away at a deliverable until I'm certain it is unassailably perfect. I'm not sober if I'm exceeding my time estimates more than 3x-4x.
    • Lying about work and performance to save face, avoid being judged negatively, otherwise escape the consequences of my procrastination/perfectionism.
  • I'll do whatever's necessary today to walk a path that allows me to be useful.
  • Only higher power can keep me sober, but I need others to connect to higher power — and other people can help me see things I won't otherwise see, and can help me be accountable.
  • this is just for today; tomorrow I can go another way if I so choose.
  • I turn my will and my life over to walking whatever path the truth — the dharma — reveals to me.
  • in the next 24 hours, I'm not planning to do anything I would be ashamed of.
  • obstacles ahead: fear, anxiety, urge to be dishonest.

TO-DO LIST:

Following on a suggestion I remembered yesterday, I'm adding something here:

 

THE BAR OF SUCCESS

I'll judge today a success if I:

- call (and speak to — voicemails don't count) someone who's in recovery

- make a second call to someone else in recovery. (No voicemails!)

- make a third call (Seriously, no voicemails!)

 

WORK

- client #2: write re renegotiating priorities

- client #2: review/comment on beta site

- client #2: respond to SP's email

- client #2: respond to LG's email

- client #2: look at rebuild wireframes / mood boards

- bizdev:follow up on lead

 

RECOVERY:

- morning prayer

- daily renewal

- journaling

- meditation

- exercise

- meeting?

 

 

kromer 10:50 CI

OK, late start but I've packed and cleaned and gotten cards this morning.

I have a flight today but I don't have to leave until about 5:30, so I have some time.

MITs are:
*Send card to M & F (will do this soon)
*Check on expts, get them set up for when I'm gone
*Genotyping (made good progress)
*Read 2 papers (on flight)

Other tasks:
*Look at slides (will do this soon)
*Organize teaching papers
*Read 2 more papers

*Email CE, choose boundary marker

hope4meandu checkin (11:00AM)

Thanks findingaway for the starter!!

HAPPY AMOST TURKEY, EVERYONE!!

Have fear & confusion today. Thankfully, to you all I cleaned the hallway stairs last night.

Tonight I want to possibly work out, dust and clean kitchen, living room & dining room floors.

Confused about what to do about my marriage. Turning it over to HP.

This group I liked & used to be involved with recently contacted me saying they are back. I have lots of paranoid fears they will now leave me out because they find better people. I don't know them very well, but I don't think they are that kind of people, BUT, I guess dissapointment reigns in my life now. Just needed to share this. Thanks.

Wishing you all a non-procrastinating, great today!!

♥Prayers & guidance needed & appreciated for my Yoffee's emotional & physical healing.♥

katia 11/23

One more assignment, and then a break for Thanksgiving!

List-
-Vitamins/Fe#1/Bp#1
-Fe#2/Bp#2
-Read Ch 17 Sect 1-4, 6
-Review W15L1
-Reading Quiz
-Activity
-PS #35
-Respond to forum post
-Appt #1
-Appt #2
- #1, #2, #3
-Clean out second desk drawer
-Cancel other Appt

All sorts of leftover junk!
-W14L1 ActivityYES
-Calc evaluation test
-Respond to other emails
-Hook up SNES
-Clean out top drawer of desk
-Create a study schedule for final
-Unstick bottom desk drawer

Muahaha I am quite pleased.

Pre-Vacation Madness with the Scribbler

Prep
  • get up at 6
  • make bed
  • exercise
  • sweeps
  • coffee, paper
  • checkins

Morning

  • Update Quicken
  • Clean off desk
  • Music marketing
  • Invoice re: steward
  • Do Perch intvw
  • File 2 Bnet -//

Afternoon

  • Call Dunn re: moment (postponed, he was tied up)
  • Talk to LL
  • File Design
  • P/u B at 2:45

Evening

  • P/U C at 5
  • Healthy dinner
  • Fun w/Kids
  • Rehearse Croce song
  • Bed by10:30

Journey 10 am

Back at work after a day off, with top priority project completion under my belt!   Thanks for being here during all the stress, worry, and self-doubt that plagued me during that project.   I am "coasting" a little bit this week but I still have plenty of work to do.   Transitions are still hard for me, and even a good ending is still a difficult time for me in the area of procrastination.   I am 'on call" this week but since it's a holiday week, I don't expect to have a lot of calls to deal with.  Even so that will help to keep me on my toes and avoid drifting off in to whatever.  

I have a bunch of email to catch up on.   I have one meeting today at 10:30, and I'm going out to lunch (again!).   I will finish my todo list before the 10:30 meeting and I will take some time today to review my goals and priorities now that this big project is out of the way.  

I also want to start working on getting up and getting to the gym earlier since I'll be on some kind of a regular sleep schedule for the rest of the year.  Today I got up at 5:00 but didn't get to the gym until 6:30.    That was still an improvement over the past month or so.  I also go to work a few minutes early,  but didn't make my goal time of 8:30.  I work from home tomorrow and Thursday is a holiday, so we'll shoot for 8:30 on Friday.   It should be a very good traffic day! 

OK, I'm rambling, so have an enjoyable and productive day, and I'll see you later.

Jo

Jo  

'You become what you think about most of the time.' - Brian Tracy

Vic 11-23

Show up (done) Pray for willingnes to be willing to do next right thing and get out of self.

Look at my schedule and write down ev erything I accoplished yesterday.

Thanks for being here.

My Day Today

I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.

I want to thank findaway for starting this trend.

Things I will do today

1. Go to the 8:30 a.m. telephone PA meeting

2. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA meeting

3. Go to the PA Chcek-ins

4. Prayer and meditation

5. Look for my bills

6. Pay my bills

7. Send out Al-Anon literature for the week

8. Make bed

9. Wash dishes

10. Eat brunch

11. Eat dinner

12. Take shower

13. Get dressed

14. Go to the telephone PA meeting at 11 a.m.

15. Go to a library workshop at 1:30

16. Clear couch

17. Clear tables

18. Clear floor

19. Read spiritual literature.

20. Declutter 1,000 e-mail

21. Do hair

22. Do numbers

Thanks for letting me share

Rexroth Check In

Thanks for starting the thread findingaway. Mystified about the date it is Tuesday 23rd I hope.

Done:
Up prayer and reflection
Wash up
Try and succeed in getting into online bank records
Phone firm that says I signed up and I say I didn't - they say they will refund my money
Calculated how much money I have and confirmed that all withdrawals abroad are taken account of
Put financial records away
Made arrangement with landlords for repairing socket and said thanks to them for fixing a tap yesterday
Looked through todo lists which run upto the end of the year

Todo:
Put clean clothes away
Put on washing machine
Write to ISP
Transfer money from one account to another
Wait in this afternoon for heater delivery

This will do

Regards Rexroth

Rexroth Check Out

Done:
Above except not quite finished ISP letter
Started research on new flat

Todo:
Prayer and reflection
Bed and sleep

Night Everyone

Rexroth

Findingaway checking in 11 am

Well - not such a great start with getting the date wrong - my apologies if this has confused anyone.
Have been away for 3 days (although yesterday was partly work-related) - just trying to get back into things.
Also not a very early start. But I have done:
- meditation
- exercise
- dealt with a few emails
Here is my list:
- USB drive
- template work with M
- plan week
- email re T

- work on B
- research for G
- ring G for discussion
.

Yesterday I did something a bit scary (attended an academic seminar relevant to my work) which worked out well, so happy that I persevered. Renewed a connection with someone I had not expected to see.

MD - thanks for your help - have fixed it now! but sorry I had to delete your comment.