Saturday August 28, 2010
Happy Saturday, everybody
Time to either rest of play catch-up.
Have a nice beginning of the weekend
Peace
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an4 CI 28/08/10
Ok so i actually took undergrad thesis to printing today, 3 weeks overdue, but its done. Im still afraid of what thesis committee will think about it, hopefully it will be decent enough to give me a pass grade the day of my defense...Meanwhile, next week i should start focusin on thesis paperwork at faculty so i can have a chance to get into masters this year even if i dont have a defense date settled yet. I dont know what will happen but i am glad at least i moved on, after 3 years of ongoing anxiety and frustration because of this. Today my only task is rest and sleep.
These last days have been very exhausting. Thanks to pro for creating this site and to all my burst buddies who were working with me and encouraging me during these last stressful weeks (you know who you are 
).
((an4ever))
MARVELOUS!
congrats an4!
I know how hard you worked on this and I am so glad you finally got it to printing. Wow! Enjoy your rest--you sure earned it
I'm so happy for you!
Thank you for posting this check-in, an4ever :)
It makes me so happy that you have actually reached the end of your long journey with writing this paper. And, the idea of having only rest and sleep on your to-do list today is so appealing to me that it actually inspires me to begin trying to work again (which I had given up on).
I'm going to try.
It almost seems, actually, impossible that there could be an endpoint to my paper. It feels like something that cannot happen. That it will simply never finish, and the deadline will pass and I will have failed. It seems as if the end of the paper doesn't exist as a potential reality. And so I've come to feel totally detached from the idea of working on it anymore.
But, your example makes me think, maybe it can be done. So, I'll see if I can get my head back around it.
Congratulations, again. I'm really proud of you for sticking with it this whole time, through to the finish. I know what a monstrous effort it took and I think you showed amazing strength to keep showing up and keep going, despite all the exhaustion and stress and anxiety.
(((((hugs)))))
piet
(piet)
Hey piet! I know exactly how you feel since i was feeling that way almost all the time with this, but if i could do it, you can do it too!!
Tomorrow i have to keep on working with some tasks from my job, so if you want burst buddy to stay motivated and try to finish your paper ill be around in the morning and afternoon too around 4 pm. In any case, dont give up! 
Hugs.
Gwen D: CI 12:31pm
Thank you PA'rs, for being here.
I am hyperventilating and my attention is unfocused. I have a deadline on Tuesday. A scary one for me because it demands that I do something I've been talking about for two years (since January 2008!) but haven't done at all.
Good news is I have punted all other obligations off my plate.
Bad news is my house feels messy and I know a quick clean up would make me feel much better.
Good news is I've been studying and practicing with related problems (I hope) so that if I sit down and do this, it might actually take shape according to my vague plan.
But, yeah. Bad news is, very little hands-on experience, very vague plan.
In order to alleviate the panic I will now set the timer for 15 minutes and wash dishes so that my self-esteem goes up to a level which will allow me to work better.
It's a theory, but this link between my self-esteem and my ability to solve problems is probably not completely off the wall. So --invest in a Saturday afternoon tidying up.
Dishes
Bathroom surfaces
pile of clothes
pile of magazines
tomorrow I can sweep and vacuum
Tonight I may see movie with friends (so as not to continue this lengthy bout of total isolation).
I wish I could go get a manicure, but only if I make some miraculous breakthrough on my problem by 5pm. That's my condition.
Fingers crossed. Timer about to be set.
Gwen D: CI Sunday 5pm
I made good progress yesterday. Defined all the fields. Wasn't simple.
Today my relatives came to town.
I didn't know they were coming! I never see my brother and his family. I made a choice to have a good afternoon with them. It was a choice. It was a really good afternoon. Beautiful weather. Great company.
But...I DO NOT KNOW how I'm going to recover this 5 hours of prime work time. This is aggravating.
Checking in, because I have stated goals here and need to follow up here.
I'm going to eat then try to at least make it so I can SEE a map on my site. Geeze.
Gnothi Seauton ~ Know Thyself
Gwen D: CI 1:41 with plan
Half hour over. Kitchen okay for now. First part of plan is to
create site, content types (based on notes)
begin to enter last year's data for example purposes (stop at 5 records)
Install gmap or geo module (choose based on which allows marker drag-drop input)
enable and create (user's) view for individual nodes of this content type including editable map
You notice I haven't
You notice I haven't troubled you with the details of my project. Those exist. On this piece of paper over here, and on that OmniFocus list. And other places.
Okay. If I clean up in half hour I will check back with better work plan.
BC 8/28
Lennon, thanks for starting the thread!
-Go through one box of stuff from parent's house
-Enjoy my friend's wedding!
I don't think I will have any trouble with today's tasks...
Last day + 1
1:08 PM: Yesterday was supposed to be my last day at this job. But here I am one more time, thanks to my supervisor who granted me one extra day to finish that one last 'bear' case and also got me help yesterday with the background work that should have been completed before the case came to me for analysis and report in the first place. I feel thankful, but anxious, because I don't want to fail with this 'second' chance. So, my plan is to devote the next 4 hours, no more, to finishing up this report the best I can, so I can walk out of here by 5:30 PM knowing that my backlog has been cleared. I realize that some loose ends will remain, but the list of cases will be complete, if not perfect.
Goal 1: 1:20 PM - 5:30 PM: Finish the last pending case on the list.
Goal 2: Leave this job behind at 5:30 PM today.
Back to report.
Done. Moving on.
kromer 1:35 CI
Today: more writing. I need to get this proposal sent off to my advisor, EA, and WB.
I also need to do some small tasks: organizing, make sol'n, finish setting up practice prelim, organize biking, find papers, review 5 papers from C100.
This feels overwhelming, but I know I can do it. Heading to the chatbox to do some writing/revising for an hour, then I'll take a break with some small tasks.
Saturday
Today I need to:
-eat moderate breakfast, coffee, wash up
-12 step literature, OA online meeting
-shower, hair, make up
-write M.
-read e-mail, reply too if needed
-go to the supermarket with list
-write Mum
In recovery
Elina
-When I look into the future, it is so bright it burns my eyes ~ Oprah Windfrey
Rexroth Check In
Thanks for starting the thread lennon. I was thinking of doing so and now I don't have too.
Done:
Up prayer and reflection
Checked emails and postings
Todo:
Get ready and go out to DA meeting
Participate in meeting and say goodby to friends
On way back collect rest of prescription and some cards - the chemist sells the nicest and cheapest cards
Cleaning tidying sorting preparing to go away when home
Deal with mail if any - the last mail before I go away
Regard Rexroth
Rexroth Update
Done:
Above except not the cards as I've checked and I have some
No mail - so there is now no more mail for me until I get back
Put on washing machine
I'm continuing to clean and sort and also resting a bit - I am very tired very much up to date and have no emergency stuff to do or sort and I don't leave until Wednesday
Todo:
Hang up washing
Rest
Keep on sorting ready for travel
Regards Rexroth
Rexroth Check Out
Done:
Various bits of sorting and getting ready and not the bits I thought I would do and it does not matter.
Rested - I am both very tired and restless at the moment
Todo:
Prayer and reflection
Bed and sleep - I would like to be fresh for church tomorrow and I intend to go however I feel.
Night Folks
Rexroth
4 more sleeps and then away
My Day Today
I want to thank my Higher Power for this program, this website, the telephone and online meetings, and my life.
Things I plan to do today
1. Prayer and meditation
2. Go to the 7 a.m. telephone DA meeting3. Go to the 9:45 a.m. telephone CLA meeting4. Go to the 11:30 a.m. telephone DA meeting
5. Go to the 7:30 p.m. face to face NA meeting
6. Take a shower
7. Get dressed
8. Eat brunch9. Cook and eat dinner
10. Get my numbers caught up11. Make bed
12. Wash dishes
13. One hour decluttering
14. One hour reading 12-Step literature
15. One hour studying my Business class
16. One hour studying my Computer class
17. One hour studying my Leadership class
18. One hour decluttering e-mail
19. Count my money
20. Get my books together and write down the books
21. One hour of posting Al-Anon literature22. One hour of writing my date and time
23. Get my sleep apnea stuff ready for the week
24. Do hair
That's all I have