Introducing myself

I just recently quit drinking, and had alot of support and help with that by joining a forum for sobriety. I have realized, tho, after peeling back the numbing agent, that there are some serious issues that I have been avoiding, one of which is avoidance (procrastination). I've had really limited success in dealing with it on my own, like the drinking, so I sought out a forum for procrastination recovery in the same way I did for drinking recovery. That's how I found you guys.

 I recently finished the rough draft of a book (I have started many books, and have been tinkering with this one for three years, but this is the first one I've finished) and I find that I'm rather enamored of the feeling I get finishing things. I'd like to feel like the tasks I set out for myself are things that I finish as well. I'd like to feel more in control of my life (at least, more in control of the things that CAN be controlled).

I read an article here about Demand Sensitivity and Demand Resistance and it struck a chord. I grew up refusing to do what was demanded of me, because it was the only way to 1) feel not controlled and 2) prevent being ignored by my parents. I nearly flunked out of High School as a result. The habit remains, and it is deeply ingrained. The minute I think of a thing to do, I feel like I must, and end up avoiding it. You'd think that knowing that would be enough to change things, but it isn't. I need some help, support, if I am to change.

Anyway, that's my issue in a nutshell. I look forward to getting to know you all, and hopefully, together, we can overcome our self-imposed limitations and really be the people we want to be.

Thanks,

Rev