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Oy! I SO do not want to do my financial stuff (checkbook and bills.) Money is a little tight, and I'm afraid I've been spending too much, so I don't want to think about it.
Not like I'm going to be out on the street or deep in debt or anything, but I may be living a bit beyond my means, and the holidays are coming & I'd rather not deal with it.
Oh well, here goes. I'll use my timer & break it up. Heading over to the chatbox. . .
Difficult time today being accountable. I was productive but only slightly and in a very drifty way. As soon as I sat down at the cmputer I had to fight the urge to play games. A mini-prayer ("God, help!) got me to work (thanks HP) but I never felt quite "on" the job today. Very distractable, sleepy, slightly irritable.
MITs were RM work, AH reading, travel booking, and AP updates. I've done a little RM work, a little AP work, and now the boss has added several urgencies that bumped everything else to tomorrow: email, DONE; exp, research new project.
I'm feeling unsettled and inadequate - but trusting Higher Power that feelings are not facts. It's almost time to walk the dog and start dinner, but I really must finish the RM work and the bosses' other urgencies. Plus I have a meeting tonight at 7:30, and really must make bed by 10. I think the slipping-ever-later bedtime is a factor in my discomfort.
I haven't done this before - bookending, that is - so here goes.
Over the next two hours, I'm going to work on writing comments for a proposal. I'm going to start with breaking down the task and visualizing, and i'm going to set my 15-minute timer over andover again to give myself short breaks and to keep moving through the steps.
Thanks Vic and Agnus. I apreciate your words and prayers and really feel I'm not alone. Thank you all for sharing and being here. Things are going slowly ok. I'm fine with it.
Thank you God for this day, for my family and friends and for the oportunity to share and to contribute.
Had to bring back most of my tasks from yesterday. I'm still happy since I managed to build my new schedule... helped me figure out where can I make use of my available time... also helped me notice I really have less available time than I usually think there is. As many others here I0m bad at calculating both my available time as well as how long tasks will take to be completed. Now, I'll just need to stick with it!
OCz I can definitley relate as well. I haven't been here long but I am interested to know how things unfold. My spouse is in agony watching me pretty much flush my opportunity to complete law school. The saddest part of all is that I absolutely LOVE the material and, not to be egotistical, but I'm MORE than capable of learning it. Once you're there law school really is about who works hardest, not who's smartest lol. My only obstacle is me. Our spouses must be exhausted with watching us flush happiness down the toilet. Because they care for us I'm sure it is especially painful to watch. I hope your spouse can find even a spark of trust in order that she may rekindle her love so that your marriage can go forward and flourish.
even tho the above is true, i still spent the first 1.5 hours today surfing. that seemed like an grievous sin to me. i felt lost and hopeless, never being able to get that 1.5 hrs back in my critical week of work.
so i turned to psalm 51. O man that is powerful juice for living.
v17:
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.
among other gems.
i also read 1 john. another powerful and amazing book.
i went there because of this:
1 john 1:8I f we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. 9If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
but found so much more, eg:
1 john 4:16 : god is love
1 john 4:18 : perfect love casts out fear
and i feel that love when i read the bible and it has such a powerful effect on me.
so, now i can move on, and go forward in confidence and hope.
...got distracted again, but i'm sooo ready to work now...
some of those same verses came to me in my Step 11 time today: the ones about how God is love. My dis-ease tries so hard to convince me otherwise, but this is the simplest and truest distillation of "God as He expresses Himself in our group conscience." The God of Recovery is a God of love.
Happy Wednesday! I never checked in yesterday, but I did read your posts and sending good vibes to Ag and OCz. And the rest of you too of course lol.
Yesterday was a fairly hectic day, I ended up working most of the day on Project E, which is not my top priority but keeps becoming urgent. Today I'm going to work on my top two projects, Project V and the tedious Project P which is thankfully coming to the end.
I'm working from home today and I'm still in my gym clothes. My todo list is made, email has been read, calendar has been checked. Now to change into work-from-home clothes and settle down to business.
Have a great day all!
Jo
"The world is my classroom, each day is a new lesson, and every person I meet is my teacher" - Craig Harper
Really frustrated today, because I thought I was going to be able to do an experiment on Friday, and it turns out I'll need to delay it by 2 weeks. I'm going to try to figure out if there's any way I can get it done on schedule, but I don't think there is.
OK, so I'm not going to get this experiment done on schedule, but I can still do good work. In particular, I'll try to accelerate my r.b. project. I can do a test run of my new primers (to determine which are the best, and to make a Pfaffl curve for each), so that my stuff will hopefully run smoothly when I can finally do my experiment. I can work on some computational/literature search projects (these are important too!). And, I can try to figure out a better mouse ordering system,so this won't happen again. (Also, I wan't to figure out how to get a gold light, so that I can do better preps of my reagents.)
So, I have an overall plan: what does that mean I'm going to do today?
MITs:
*genotype (tired, but didn't work completely, so I'll have to re-do part of this tomorrow)
*If possible, get oriented to cell culture (will do this tomorrow, but I've talked to people about this)
*Finish detailed proj. r.b. plan (working on this now...it's a little more complicated than I'd expected, and requires me to do some experiments today)
*Work on figuring out mouse ordering system (Talked to a couple of people about this, and am going to bring it up at group meeting in a couple weeks)
*Work on GSEA first wave
*Work on comp project
*go through midterm
So, I have plenty of work, no problem. I'm going to go ask around about mouse ordering system, then I'll genotype, then I'll work on GSEA first wave.
Update 2:30: Turns out the r.b. project plan is a little more complicated than I thought (I need to figure out how to verify my plasmid and my RA, amplify plasmid, as well as do transfections and microscopy). So, I'm breaking it down here
1)Figure out how to do verification of plasmid
1a)Figure out how to open map file, try to match up w/ map of CAG plasmid, print all documentatioN
1b)Identify restriction sites and make plan for doing restriction test
1c)Check map file against known RAR, eCFP, cpVenus sequences to make sure they're right. Also see if I can ID promoter and AmpR gene. Send request to postdoc for any needed info
1d)Design and order primers for sequencing RAR region (will do this later)
2)Figure out how to do verification of RA
2a)Ask L about cells (she doesn't have them, though she should get them in a couple of weeks)
2b)If she doesn't have them, order primers for RA-responsive genes ( should do this, but I'm not totally sure what the RA responsive genes are)
3)Prepare for plasmic amplification
3a)Read about transformations
3b)Read about mini-preps
4)Start prep for microscopy
4a)Finish reading about fluorescent proteins
4b)Find a basic intro to fluorescence microscopy
4c)Get as many papers as possible on similar sensors
Whew! I don't have to get this all done today: I'll just start going down the list. Right now, I'm going to install program I need to look at the documentation that was sent. Then, I'm going to do the next step of the genotyping.
The last several days I've been mostly out of the home office and off line. Generally I've been able to do what I need to do, including appropriately defer some big projects and accomplish shorter-term smaller projects.
Today's biggest project is an editing job, Project D-K-P. It must be completed for the client by end of today.
A number of other things on my task list that I hope to at least put a dent in, but none of them urgent.. They will wait (and can) until D-K-P is finished.
1 or 2 other urgent admin tasks, which I will do first. They're quick.
~~
Want what you have. Be who you are. Do what you can. ~Forrest Church (1948-2009)
Showing up (done) Did go to next level yesterday of people connection-got on cla phone meeting and ended up being a moderator because the real moderator had to leave and pick up her son with the swine flu.Then helped someone their with computer issues. This really helped stop the self cricism because everyone thought I was so wonderful for doing this.
fudoshin: just for today: 10:33pm
Please do not leave advice. Thank you. Prayers welcome.
I am going to:
put away homework from French
brush my teeth, floss, use the periodontic brush and use listerine for 30s before bed tonight
walk thirty minutes or do part of my run/walk program for 30minutes.
avoid talking, laughing and singing for 24 hours until 9:05pm Thursday
do exercise 304, and respond to the questions on "The deserter et la liberte de parole.make some dinnerwrite about Gawain's interaction with the green knight and the events at King Arthur's court.
Falcon CI Wed.
Hi pro buddies,
Oy! I SO do not want to do my financial stuff (checkbook and bills.) Money is a little tight, and I'm afraid I've been spending too much, so I don't want to think about it.
Not like I'm going to be out on the street or deep in debt or anything, but I may be living a bit beyond my means, and the holidays are coming & I'd rather not deal with it.
Oh well, here goes. I'll use my timer & break it up. Heading over to the chatbox. . .
Falcon
Ag showing up
Difficult time today being accountable. I was productive but only slightly and in a very drifty way. As soon as I sat down at the cmputer I had to fight the urge to play games. A mini-prayer ("God, help!) got me to work (thanks HP) but I never felt quite "on" the job today. Very distractable, sleepy, slightly irritable.
MITs were RM work, AH reading, travel booking, and AP updates. I've done a little RM work, a little AP work, and now the boss has added several urgencies that bumped everything else to tomorrow:
email,DONE; exp, research new project.I'm feeling unsettled and inadequate - but trusting Higher Power that feelings are not facts. It's almost time to walk the dog and start dinner, but I really must finish the RM work and the bosses' other urgencies. Plus I have a meeting tonight at 7:30, and really must make bed by 10. I think the slipping-ever-later bedtime is a factor in my discomfort.
hey Agnus, i felt very much
hey Agnus, i felt very much the same today. here's hoping tomorrow will be better.
much peace
11/18 bookending
I haven't done this before - bookending, that is - so here goes.
Over the next two hours, I'm going to work on writing comments for a proposal. I'm going to start with breaking down the task and visualizing, and i'm going to set my 15-minute timer over andover again to give myself short breaks and to keep moving through the steps.
There!
Spirit 11/18
Started out in a better place than yesterday.
Morning CheckinEmail Troubleshooting-1hrpaperwork for insbreakfast, make bedSpirit
OCz glad to be here today!
Thanks Vic and Agnus. I apreciate your words and prayers and really feel I'm not alone. Thank you all for sharing and being here. Things are going slowly ok. I'm fine with it.
Thank you God for this day, for my family and friends and for the oportunity to share and to contribute.Show upmorning mail reviewOCz tasks update
Had to bring back most of my tasks from yesterday. I'm still happy since I managed to build my new schedule... helped me figure out where can I make use of my available time... also helped me notice I really have less available time than I usually think there is. As many others here I0m bad at calculating both my available time as well as how long tasks will take to be completed. Now, I'll just need to stick with it!
Create the fileassignmentsPM
Build weekly/monthly routine schedulemy thoughts are with you
OCz I can definitley relate as well. I haven't been here long but I am interested to know how things unfold. My spouse is in agony watching me pretty much flush my opportunity to complete law school. The saddest part of all is that I absolutely LOVE the material and, not to be egotistical, but I'm MORE than capable of learning it. Once you're there law school really is about who works hardest, not who's smartest lol. My only obstacle is me. Our spouses must be exhausted with watching us flush happiness down the toilet. Because they care for us I'm sure it is especially painful to watch. I hope your spouse can find even a spark of trust in order that she may rekindle her love so that your marriage can go forward and flourish.
Hugs
Thanks Rightmeow
I've been following your story as well (and a lot others here). I pray for all of us to start solving our issues.
I'll keep posting how things go at home... so far, we've managed to see that the spark you mention is still there... we'll just have to nurture it!
by the way, I loved your opening line: Happiness will surely make top in my list of new habits I'm trying to grow.
rightmeow CI 10:20
1.
Shower2.
Unload dishwasher3.
Make coffee4.
Take dog outFinish yesterday's study tasksCrim5. Read:
834-837; cs 149 (jury instruction)6. Brief:
People v Hernandez,People v Cash, State v BurneyCiv Pro (today's)7. Read: 402-414; 473-481; cp 77-79; FRCP
106-107; 218; 262-263; 2738. Brief: Beeck; Moore; Bonerb; Peralta; Vaqueria
9.
Check InCL daily overcoming
extra focus, extra hours work week
even tho the above is true, i still spent the first 1.5 hours today surfing. that seemed like an grievous sin to me. i felt lost and hopeless, never being able to get that 1.5 hrs back in my critical week of work.
so i turned to psalm 51. O man that is powerful juice for living.
v17:
among other gems.
i also read 1 john. another powerful and amazing book.
i went there because of this:
but found so much more, eg:
1 john 4:16 : god is love
1 john 4:18 : perfect love casts out fear
and i feel that love when i read the bible and it has such a powerful effect on me.
so, now i can move on, and go forward in confidence and hope.
...got distracted again, but i'm sooo ready to work now...
10:20 : dailies
1030 : work plan
10:40 : work...
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
CL daily overcoming
amen vic!
10:20 : dailies :)
1030 : work plan :)
10:40 : work... :)
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the touch of the master's hand: http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/node/1898#comment-27748
"fall down seven times, get up eight" - japanese proverb
@clem...funny how
some of those same verses came to me in my Step 11 time today: the ones about how God is love. My dis-ease tries so hard to convince me otherwise, but this is the simplest and truest distillation of "God as He expresses Himself in our group conscience." The God of Recovery is a God of love.
Journey 10:15 hugs to OCz and Ag
Happy Wednesday! I never checked in yesterday, but I did read your posts and sending good vibes to Ag and OCz. And the rest of you too of course lol.
Yesterday was a fairly hectic day, I ended up working most of the day on Project E, which is not my top priority but keeps becoming urgent. Today I'm going to work on my top two projects, Project V and the tedious Project P which is thankfully coming to the end.
I'm working from home today and I'm still in my gym clothes. My todo list is made, email has been read, calendar has been checked. Now to change into work-from-home clothes and settle down to business.
Have a great day all!
Jo
"The world is my classroom, each day is a new lesson, and every person I meet is my teacher" - Craig Harper
kromer 9:50 CI
Really frustrated today, because I thought I was going to be able to do an experiment on Friday, and it turns out I'll need to delay it by 2 weeks. I'm going to try to figure out if there's any way I can get it done on schedule, but I don't think there is.
OK, so I'm not going to get this experiment done on schedule, but I can still do good work. In particular, I'll try to accelerate my r.b. project. I can do a test run of my new primers (to determine which are the best, and to make a Pfaffl curve for each), so that my stuff will hopefully run smoothly when I can finally do my experiment. I can work on some computational/literature search projects (these are important too!). And, I can try to figure out a better mouse ordering system,so this won't happen again. (Also, I wan't to figure out how to get a gold light, so that I can do better preps of my reagents.)
So, I have an overall plan: what does that mean I'm going to do today?
MITs:
*genotype (tired, but didn't work completely, so I'll have to re-do part of this tomorrow)
*If possible, get oriented to cell culture (will do this tomorrow, but I've talked to people about this)
*Finish detailed proj. r.b. plan (working on this now...it's a little more complicated than I'd expected, and requires me to do some experiments today)
*Work on figuring out mouse ordering system (Talked to a couple of people about this, and am going to bring it up at group meeting in a couple weeks)
*Work on GSEA first wave
*Work on comp project
*go through midterm
So, I have plenty of work, no problem. I'm going to go ask around about mouse ordering system, then I'll genotype, then I'll work on GSEA first wave.
Update 2:30: Turns out the r.b. project plan is a little more complicated than I thought (I need to figure out how to verify my plasmid and my RA, amplify plasmid, as well as do transfections and microscopy). So, I'm breaking it down here
1)Figure out how to do verification of plasmid
1a)
Figure out how to open map file, try to match up w/ map of CAG plasmid, print all documentatioN1b)
Identify restriction sites and make plan for doing restriction test1c)
Check map file against known RAR, eCFP, cpVenus sequences to make sure they're right. Also see if I can ID promoter and AmpR gene. Send request to postdoc for any needed info1d)Design and order primers for sequencing RAR region (will do this later)
2)Figure out how to do verification of RA
2a)
Ask L about cells(she doesn't have them, though she should get them in a couple of weeks)2b)If she doesn't have them, order primers for RA-responsive genes ( should do this, but I'm not totally sure what the RA responsive genes are)
3)Prepare for plasmic amplification
3a)Read about transformations
3b)Read about mini-preps
4)Start prep for microscopy
4a)Finish reading about fluorescent proteins
4b)Find a basic intro to fluorescence microscopy
4c)Get as many papers as possible on similar sensors
Whew! I don't have to get this all done today: I'll just start going down the list. Right now, I'm going to install program I need to look at the documentation that was sent. Then, I'm going to do the next step of the genotyping.
GeorgeSmiley 11/18
7:32 AM -- Check-in
Good morning, all...
The last several days I've been mostly out of the home office and off line. Generally I've been able to do what I need to do, including appropriately defer some big projects and accomplish shorter-term smaller projects.
Today's biggest project is an editing job, Project D-K-P. It must be completed for the client by end of today.
A number of other things on my task list that I hope to at least put a dent in, but none of them urgent.. They will wait (and can) until D-K-P is finished.
1 or 2 other urgent admin tasks, which I will do first. They're quick.
~~
Want what you have. Be who you are. Do what you can. ~Forrest Church (1948-2009)
~~
The Hero's Code:
Show Up. Pay Attention. Speak the Truth. Let Go o
Vic 11/18
Showing up (done) Did go to next level yesterday of people connection-got on cla phone meeting and ended up being a moderator because the real moderator had to leave and pick up her son with the swine flu.Then helped someone their with computer issues. This really helped stop the self cricism because everyone thought I was so wonderful for doing this.
Back in my own head, alone, it was hard. I got a self talk mp3 file from www.4shared.com they have many free MP3 files including the Now Habit -I love that one.
Today's challenge: Kindness- everyone I meet and include myself.
roses ci
Morning everyone. I'm hoping for a productive day today, wishing the same for you guys too.
Here's how it looks:
Much peace.
Hope-Faith CI 5:32
Good Morning All,
Thanks for the thread starter rightmeow.
Thought for the day Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore". -Andre Gide
Continue to use master list through Thursday. Here it goes
Frig Drawers
Daily Declutter
As if I do not have enough other things I need to remember to do.
hope-faith