I have been working the steps from the workbook someone in PA shared.
It is really amazing. The more I learn of this issue, the deeper it gets. I am wondring if my core issue is "avoidance" and procrastination is a symptom. I looked up procrastination and it was defined as "postpone", which I tend to do. However "avoidance" is escape. I avoid more than postone. I really convince myself I will take care of things later, but I think I do that as a lie to really avoid.
"showing up" at this site was my first baby step away from "avoidance". I have a long way to go. Below is some interesting material since many of us are seasoned 12 step people.
LIVES HAD BECOME UNMANAGEABLE. This program is designed to remove obstructions and create an environment where the natural healing, wholeness, and awakening can take place. The principles that cause the healing are found in the process of doing and living these suggestions. Action is the magic word. This process of healing begins the same way in any area of our life to which we may choose to apply it. It begins with the realization that we are powerless to change, alone and unaided. The mind set that made us sick will not, cannot make us well. We must want a change in our life, not just need it, or we will not go to any length to get it. Many of us have been around the program for some time and at the first sign of a problem, we want to jump into an inventory.
We are suggesting that anytime we realize we are falling short of the way of life we really want to live in any area, we start at Step One and take the first nine Steps in order. A dentist had a sign in his office, “Only floss those teeth you want to keep”. We are saying: only practice this program in the areas of your life that you want to be joyous, happy and free.
Step 1 questions:
1. List those things you want changed. Choose one. "avoidance"2. What pain or fear do you associate with changing this area? 3. What pleasure are you getting out of not changing? 4. What will it cost you if this does not change? 5. What are the benefits you could gain by having this changed? 6. How has this problem area placed your important relationships in jeopardy? (Example) 7. Have you lost self-respect and/or reputation due to this problem? 8. Has this problem made your home life unhappy? 9. Has this problem caused any type of illness? (Example)