Wednesday, July 8 2009

CLEAN office STARTED 

cement office

find/buy shirts  DONE!!!!

blue tooth

pd, call NWK HR STARTED DONE!!!!

Find MJordan thing TRIED: (progress not prefectn)

return emails DONE (ALRIGHT!)

time sheets

diary

clean DR STARTED   xxxxx

prgress not preection 

Prayers welcome.

 

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Hello, people of PA!  I have a pile of papers that I've delayed so long in doing anything about or filing that they've-- well I won't go into that.  The reason I have a pile is because I've procrastinated on this one project since I joined this program, which has slowly gnawed away at me.  Anyways.  I had a negative interview yesterday, but I've decided to just delete the email, as there was nothing I could do with it.  I still have to call back that person from the movie theater if I want that job.  Since theyt old me the software company wants to hire me starting the July 20th.  My plan for today was roughly to return my DVD, go on a run/walk, buy some tea at the store. 

 

I am going to write down the things I didn't know from that interview and then throw the email away, b/c that was negative stuff.  I am not a zero out of ten or whatever that guy said; and I have two degrees in this field, so he has no right to allege that I don't appear to have formal training or whatever insane thing he said.  And I still think it was inappropriate for the recruiter to send me the email that he had sent her just knowing what he had sent.  Furthermore, I couldn't even hear him on the phone, b/c of the connection and the way he was speaking.  I literally didn't hear him.  It was just so offensive and painful for me.  I have a learning disability, but I work as hard as anyone else, and have as much credential to be there as anyone.  Only I don't think I would want to work for that company.  She wrote me back telling me that all the candidates had a bad experience with him and that she is meeting with the CEO to see if someone else can facilitate the interviews.

call students

ecollege assignment

1 box unpacked 

write to sc

post ads to sell stuff

Took my son to doctor this morning about form of shingles he got.a small patch on his back, Thank goodness it is still early enough for treatment-I called yesterday for an appt and they did not have one intil 8 am this morning. I feel like I should have called Monday, I was not sure what it was, he thought it was poison, which he does get, but somehow I was not sure. We agreed if the poison med did not work I would call and I did, but somehow I feel like if I wasn;t a PA I would have taken care of it sooner. I can't seem to forgive myself. He worked at the church yard sale and was pushing himself, 5 am and then going out with his friends at night- I feel like I should not have let him do so much.

Well, thank god we took care of it today.

Right now between the critic in my head (whatever does not work when my children are involved), all the emotional work I have been doing about family issues (I am drained), and feeling like anything I do is pathetic, I feel frozen. It is almost 3pm.

I want to do the next 3 things, that always works for me. I can get my momentum going and I udsually get alot more done than I would have thought.

Gratitude:

1. Got my son to dr. and got meds for my son

2. Fighting self pity and have some tricks to help

3. I am not alone

4. Next 3 things method

am meeting deadlines and feeling pretty good about it - quick ci before heading out to dd appt this morning and trying to be - deep breath - on time - problem is there is always just one more thing i need to do before we go....

AND I did try to do one more thing - i needed to do it - but could have done earlier - and so we were 5 min late! Saw it coming! Better next time!

finish jobCH revision, finish jobM, printer