Procrastinators Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from chronic procrastination.

Friday 19 June2009

I won't always feel like doing the things I need to do, but with solidarity, serenity, courage, and wisdom, I  can keep going.

I can face the next five minutes of the task. And five minutes is not five times more, but infinitely more, than not starting.

Thanks, all, for being here. a good Friday to all.

fudo_shin - To Do List, 1:25am

Please no advice.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome.

 

To-do list:

  • create invoice for last contract position
  • fill out W-9 and send it out
  • call dentist and cancel the appointment on Monday to reschedule
  • go on a walk
  • write an email to Dept of Rehab
  • brush my teeth, floss, use the periodontic brush and use mouthwash before sleep
  • apply to ten jobs for today

I am thankful for:

  • such wonderful, generous friends, who are willing to lend me some money to buy food
  • for getting my UI approved 
  • for my car company willing to delay the payment one more month
  • wonderful people in my programs who I can reach out to for outreach calls
  • my chiropractor
  • karaoke
  • my professional references submitting back to me their reference forms so that I could formally apply to work at the theater
  • my having one day of "sobriety" time from these time-wasting sites
  • having a car, and getting to clean it today

One Day Chip

Please. no advice.  Thank you.  Prayers welcome.

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Hey people!  I need to give myself credit where credit is due.  I said I would give myself a CHIP, if I got to this morning without going to the following sites:

'Right now what I need in order to feel good and be effective again
is to face the things that need to be accomplished so that I can get
over this "hurdle" that causes me to feel lack of esteem.  I am going
to avoid the following sites for one day, then a week, then a month:

  • social networking sites, including facebook, twitter, youtube
  • dating sites
  • chatting sites: woome, chat with a stranger, etc.  I cannot be on a
    chatting site.  MMORPGs count as "chat sites".  IRC.  The only
    exception is 12 step-related chat.
  • chat programs
  • MMORPGs
  • YouTube, Google videos, Crackle
  • SayNow.com, and calling anyone's associated fan line'

I have to keep reading this list, because I have a tendency to forget all the sites.  Anyways, I made it to today and that is BIG.  BIG!  So this is my one-day chip.  If I think that I'm going to make it to day seven  I got to keep myself busy and positive.  I got to sit on my hands when things feel emotionally uncomfortable instead of finding those ways to procrastinate or distract my mind out of pain.  B/c I am addict, I don't quit when I start. 

 

 

Recycler CI 9:20pm EST

Hi Pro Buddies!

This morning I went to the gym & did stretching & some ab exercises.

This morning at work I focused on scheduling for a number of groups. At lunchtime I ate & did my budget. In the afternoon, I corrected some scheduling, and also did some letters.

After work, I went to a social activity. It was ok. I stayed as long as I [emotionally] could, then came home, brushed teeth & washed face, rested a while, read a while, and got on the Internet for a few minutes. Next: start getting ready to sleep.

Have a great night, everyone! :)

Recycler


Recycler

Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)

CI Do It Now 5:43 pm FRI Beautiful picture!

Call RR  DONE

RF and

RK  DONE

 

 

Falcon CI Friday

Hi pro amigos,

Been too busy to procrastinate the past few days.  

Today I've been spending more than enough time lazing & fiddling around.  Time to get something done.

Going to see if the mail is here, then use face stuff, then start cleaning floors.  If I stay with it for an hour & a half, I'll have time to get to the library before it closes.

Falcon

Falcon CI Fri. afternoon

O.k., got a good start on cleaning with the kitchen floor.  Heading off for the library now.

Falcon

fixed the date

Today is the 19th, not 20th :)

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Procrastination is the grave in which opportunity is buried.

byGodsGrace todays CI

I LOVE the starter today chickadee - thank you so much for wise words I so needed to hear and continually be reminded of - i may not feel like it (almost always) ... but.... I CAN face the next five minutes! And that will lead to the next 5... most of the battle for me is STARTING and tho I am aware of that I find that over time I have come to busy myself with other things which makes me feel better since it is not doing NOTHING as I have done in the past and need to get to a deeper level of recovery so that I am not just BUSY (still avoiding but less obviously so) but being aware and led by God to do the right thing! It is easy to get settled at a certain level and avoid getting to the next - for someone like me anyway! While I see improvement, I know that the balance in every area I long for will not come unless I consistently pray and act on this truth.

LATE start today because of a late night with dd - but all is well and getting back on track with our schedule now - don't have time but getting my hair done today which is a big blessing for me and will make me feel good :) God is helping me in this area too and I am grateful that I am slowly starting to love myself where I am and make the most of what I have now instead of waiting to feel better until... (endless list of things)

Rest of day is work on pending 3 deadlines and bank, bills. CI as I go!

Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening]. Love never fails  1 Cor. 13:4-8

((((bGG and dd))))

Praying that things settle quickly back into a smooth routine for you and dd, byGodsGrace.

9.19 check in - Barbarino

Just going to work on cleaning and organizing office and getting prepared for next week.

 

Barbarino...

I added your username to your check-in subject (the convention in the check-in area).

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Procrastination is the grave in which opportunity is buried.

thank you, everyone

It has been a wonderful experience to go through accomplishing a very scary task with the support of this fellowship. I got to feel the feelings without having me triggered too often to procrastinate (or at least, less often). Progress not perfection!

asking for help to do the next right thing

Scary task & feelings

Hi e,

Congrats on tackling the monster task! 

I think for me, the feelings sometimes scare me more than the task itself, so I'm doubly impressed that you tackled something scary and stayed with the feelings!

Falcon

falcon : feelings

I have been doing more step work and reading a book that relates Buddhist ideas about the nature of suffering as it relates to food binges that has helped me see that I create a lot of my own suffering around feelings. I also got sober 6 months ago and am now much better able to accept my feelings that I had trained myself to repress from childhood. This has been the hugest gift I have ever given myself.

asking for help to do the next right thing

Hope-Faith CI 11:00

4rd day of offical summer break

Day 3 Smoke Free

Today's task list

  1. Complete AM routine  Done
  2. Fly 
  3. E-mal Principal
  4. Handle items in work e-mail 
  5. Compost Pile 
  6. Prime Desk
  7. Project of the day Summer/Winter Clothes
  8. Find L/S program
  9. Work on decluttering stuff on bar 15 min
  10. Work on making Angels In Progress
  11. DD game 
  12. Wiki

hope-faith

In progress

  1. Flying
  2. E-mail to Principal

hope-faith

Hooray for Day 3 !

"The elevator to success is out of order.   You'll have to take the stairs . . . one step at a time." - Joe Girard

Thanks

Thanks for support, it is very very difficult, but I am making it.

 

hope-faith

re: Day 3

I remember Day 3 being especially difficult for me.  You said you have an online forum for support so I am sure they are giving you loads of advice, but I'll add my two cents:  sunflower seeds (the kind in the shell), and red hots (those tiny little cinnamon candies)  got me through a lot of tough days.   And I also used the nicotine gum when I really, really needed it.   That saved me a couple of times.   Best of luck!

Jo  

"The elevator to success is out of order.   You'll have to take the stairs . . . one step at a time." - Joe Girard

Day 3

Hi hope-faith,

We're rooting for you!  They say the first week can be really rough. . . hang in there, and treat yourself gently!

Falcon

kromer 10 CI

Had a rough time last night (did lots of web-browsing, stayed up too late), and as a result am having a very hard time getting started this morning. (Plus, I'm freezing and wet from biking in the rain, that's not really helping my concentration). I'll try to set some smallish, manageable goals and work through them at whatever pace I can.

Scheduled:
*Go home to receive delivery 4-5:15
*Church 5:15-10:15

MITs: 
*Finish significance analysis, write it up
*Write up procarbazine, transplantation expts, VAD
*Make a slide on RBP4 mutant
*Summarize dataset list and come up w/ a wishlist
*Read RA paper

Other tasks:
*Clean bathroom
*Get refs from Ogburn papers
*Organize files on lab computer

Reading the RA paper seems manageable, so I'm going to do that now. When that's done, I'll check back here, then I'll make a slide on RBP4 mutant.

Update 12:45--going very slowly today, and having a hard time staying away from websurfing, but at least I'm making progress. I've read the RA paper and had lunch. Now I'm going to spend 45 min making slide on RBP4 mutant, then I'll spend a couple hours writing up experiments.

Made slide on RBP4 mutant. That wasn't too bad! Now I need to work on writing up expts. Lab is pretty empty, so I think I can work through this in the chatbox. Should be done w/ this by around 3:30.

Agnus check-in 9:45am and 8pm

Thank God for a new day!  Yesterday is one I'm grateful to leave behind.

Nobody is harder on me than I am, so today I respect that I'm a sleep-deprived 3 year old walking around in a 56 year old bodysuit. I will be gentle with myself and focus on one thing at a time.  The most important thing to me today is that I walk humbly with my HP, and do no harm.

Already had my sponsee and sponsor calls, made one business call, and ate half my breakfast. I made my 2do2day list at 3am :rolleyes:.  Now I need to eat the rest of my breakfast and get started!  ------------------------

8pm - fairly productive but I notice I have now procrastinated 12 essential phone calls for a whole week.  What gives?  I need to do some diligent Step and Tool work on this, which I hereby commit to doing on my sabbath this weekend.  Also I want to list the things I need to carry over, b/c otherwise I will worry that I'll forget them (ah that to-list-or-not-to-list thing):

Can do on weekend: wkly update, comm invoice, mn est, address lists (mom, aps), cover ltr, folo-up repro's, reading, bills.  For Monday: the calls.

I wonder if I am dragging butt on all those other tasks b/c when they are done, I will have no excuse not to make The Calls...which have now assumed the proportions of a Dreaded Thing....  hmmm...:P  yep, Step work indicated.

Friday's child is loving and giving

Hey, nursery rhymes are as good a way as any to begin a mindset, right?

I guess I could do ninja martial arts dialogue instead (HUH! Smack! You thought you had deceived me, little man, but I see all....and I remember), but I'll stick with the nursery rhymes for now

So today, I'll be loving and giving, meanwhile attempting to accomplish, in order of priority:

1counselor...again

2boxes...again

5call landlord re skunks and lock

4call ex re car

3walk dogs

6 take daughter to look at place

 

I got hardly anything done today because of a bad reaction (endless sickups) to the medication prescribed for my ADD. However, tomorrow is another day. 

 

Sarito CL 3pm

Hi Pro Buddies,

Trying to sort out priorities for the rest of the day.  Thank you for the lovely starter, chick!

self-care: run in park; meditation cd; journaling

school: Mo focus on last 2 pages again, play through first part (be nitpicky out remaining tech difficulties); Bl also focus on last page issue w/bo & so prod, rework tech fast pass again, cho inton; several run throughs of Mo & Bl; review Ma & Ba.

  

Journey 8:45

Great thread starter Chick!

Today feels very strange because I was out sick yesterday.   I think I had one of those 24 hour bugs, up all night sick and then slept 20 hours straight.  I'm still a little weak and sore, but feeling much better today, although still a bit out of it.  It feels good to be better though, I feel sorta like I've been rebooted. 

I'm not even sure what's on my agenda today yet, I'm going to take it easy and probably leave early too.  First item is to go through my email from yesterday, turn in my time sheet and project report, and then make a todo list. 

Jo

"The elevator to success is out of order.   You'll have to take the stairs . . . one step at a time." - Joe Girard

Staying Changed

I had a very productive day yesterday. It was like I was in "the zone" and things clicked.  I was on a roll.Well, I did not get much sleep and got up at 4am.

Today I feel like I need to repeat yesterday and then some. I am too tired for that to happen. Now the self criticizm comes in. I need to keep the junk out of my head to stay changed- it's harder when I am tired. Today I plan not to spin out of orbit into the black hole, nor do I want to crash into the atmosphere because I don't have the energy to stay in orbit.

 

1.There is an telephone clutter anonymous meeting at 8:30 am I will listen to. (cla (309) 946-5100 pin #25326# at 8:30am EST )

2, Focus on 2 CLA affirmatins today (my head tells me this is WRONG!!!WRONG WRONGI feel guilt, lazy, etc.)

I set reasonable goals, remembering that my first priority is my well-being. (for both myself and my very fragile family relationships)

I schedule what I can do at a comfortable pace. I rest before I get tired.

3. Don't think- do what it says above- 5 minutes intervals.  

Everyone who got where he is has had to begin where he was.    Robert Louis Stevenson      
                            
   
 

 

 

 

Thanks for being here.

chick checks in

okay, i did the big scary task (to do with making up for my error in handling multiple versions of a doc.) step by step. Now there is some mechanical stuff, but the problem is more or less solved.

thanks to all for encouragement in chat. I am so grateful for this community.

Scary tasks

Hi Chickadee,

Congrats on getting the scary bit done!  Fixing errors can be nerve-wracking, so good for you for facing it! 

Falcon