I hae TG been making some progress but now I run into the hard core ressitance stuff like certain decsions and keeping an notebook. Ok prgress not perfection.
Weekend is mostly off, since I'm visiting my grandparents today and tomorrow. However, I have a 3-page paper due on Tuesday (I've given a related presentation, but I haven't started the paper). So I want to write a page of that tonight and a page tomorrow. I plan to talk on the phone with a friend tonight.
Back when I finish 1/2 page of paper.
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Strange day . . .I sat with Dad last night because Mom wasn't feeling well. I came home, took a hot bath and a nice long nap. I've been up for an hour and a half doing nothing . . . I'm freaking out over whether I need to go to the grocery store, or find something to make for dinner around here and go the store tomorrow. As usual, when I can't decide what to do, I played video games instead
OK, enough of that, as Clem says, instead of looking for an escape, ask HP for help. Well, that's a paraphrase of what Clem says.
I really want to stay in my pajamas for the rest of the day and play video games and hope that dinner will miraculously take care of itself. But that ain't gonna happen. So I think I will make a grocery list, go do the shopping, and pick up some nice salads from Zaxby's for dinner. I don't have the energy to shop and then come home and cook. But I can slog through the slopping today and then I won't have to go anywhere tomorrow and I can stay in my pjs all day if I want.
For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want - Romans 7:19
Hi pro buddies,
Been a while since I checked in -- hope everyone is doing well!
I'm in an absolute %@$#& of a mood today. There's nothing wrong in my life, just some internal conflict that is stressing me out.
Stuff I need to do today:
O.k., I had some lunch (& took out my aggression on some nice crunchy cereal.) Going to put in a load of laundry, then start on ear drops.
O.k. I got my ears done & took a nap. Checked my library items and realized I don't need to go today (which is good because it's already late.)
Have been spacing out & surfing the net. There's some inner conflict in the back of my mind that I'm just not wanting to deal with, even though once I get it to the surface I'm sure I will feel better. But I keep wanting to go into panic/avoidance mode., just feeling crabby & stressed and wanting to escape.
So, here's the deal. I will make a cup of tea, and sit still with my cranky self for one hour, and then I can take a break to read for a while.
While the tea is brewing, going to fetch my white noise machine from the other room. It's the first warm day here, and my open windows are coinciding with the neighbors playing loud music outside. Making me even more crabby. Hmmph.
ETA: Hey, self! Put down the magazine, get up and get moving!
That was helpful. . . I'm still kind of in a snit, but at least it's a more grounded snit.
I need to eat dinner, get my info for tomorrow, and contact L. and M. And I didn't run that load of laundry yet (yikes, no socks for tomorrow. . .) Better do that, too. And spend a little more time sitting with myself if there's time -- I want to get to bed early, and need to put the clocks ahead.
Hi Falcon, Just had to say although I am so sorry about your having a tough evening, I really enjoyed seeing a post with the word crankypants in it! LOL! I will have to adopt that for myself when I feel I am getting into any kind of a snit!
I think it is great that you talked it out here and are so aware of your feelings and not looking for the easy exit we all have so often sought! Very inspiring!
Just wanted to send you hugs and hope your crankypants turn to happypants :-)
Balance work and play today, keep my peace and confidence in the Lord.
Word and prayer for the day: Psalm 37:4-5 (amplified)
“Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart. 5Commit your way to the Lord [roll and repose each care of your load on Him]; trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) also in Him and He will bring it to pass.”
As I seek You in this uncomfortable place, help me to not exit, but keep my eyes on You and face it with Your grace and power. Help me to lean on and be confident in You.
My to do list:
Circus or Park after nap if dd feeling better
Return client emails as needed
Clothes ready for church before bed
JOB1 Deadline 3/10 – mini deadlines
Cut/Tie R x 350 (160 done)
Fold Wrap x 350
Cut extra prints
Items to do better with: (I realize the value of this part in seeing patterns and areas to improve)
Email Job3 invoice, schedule - Setting deadline of 3/8 -- I realize I have put this off b/c of other more immediate deadlines knowing this was not due until next week, but want to do better in this and do things like this quickly instead of waiting until right before deadline.
Respond to t email -- This one is harder for me – a mom friend, value our time and kids playing together, but on deadline (often) I have less time to be social – I go places with dd, but let her play with who is there instead of arranging playdates where I have to talk more. I just don’t have time and don’t want to set clear boundaries I guess and explain myself or seem rude. So I put it off until a time I am less busy and then at that time I feel guilty for the time I didn’t stay in touch. There are other issues, she has money and I don’t usually so feel bad that I cant go to eat or do activities she wants – lots of things to work on here.This is a common theme for me, putting off relationships for a time when things (or I) will be more “perfect” to deal with them. Need to start a list of things to work on, this will be near the top!
Hi Pro Buddies!
Combination: while it should be a good day, evidently there will be a number of Serenity Prayer parts of the day, so I better start praying now: God, Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Will I update my CI through the day? Well, I may need to do some phone calls with people in my various programs instead; but I may be back on here from time to time today.
9:40am. Made it this far. Still Serenity Prayer time! Talk to you later!
10:40am. Yesterday it was sounding like First Encounter was not going to happen, or wasn't going to go well. Today it went ok/better than was expected yesterday. Other shoes could drop today/tomorrow. I guess today I'll just go one minute at a time. When I do something emotionally big, it can faze me afterward sometime. Today I will try to keep making some Moves Forward, even if they Aren't Perfect. (Serenity Prayer again).
11:25am. Earlier today I had forgotten to take my high blood pressure medicine; not taking it can make me feel tired, etc, so that is part of my current issue. However, I have now taken it, which should help get the afternoon back on track. I also needed to clear an area to be able to work and I have done that. One other good thing is lunch has been cooking in the crockpot for a couple of hours now. I guess I will give it a taste test around 1:30 ;) The next step is planning a little more; moving a couple more things around.
12:40pm. Yay, I am actually painting the Top Coat on the walls in small bedroom now :) Wheee!
I'm getting hungry so have stopped for a moment to look at how the crockpot is doing. I think it still needs to go about another hour?
I am using a small portion of paint in a paint-trim bucket. There is one area of baseboard that I need to put painter's tape on + paint the area just above it. I will do that then take a break until lunch is ready ;)
2pm. When food was ready, ate salad then ate rest of lunch. Probably too much cholestrol, but wanted to try new recipe ;)
While I will paint again tomorrow, I have finished what I need to do for today :)
After putting away the food, there are several things I need to do. Put away the clean dishes from the dishwasher, then run the dishwasher again.
Take clean clothes out of the washing machine and put them in the dryer.
Rinse off the paint brush, then see what else I need to do ;)
4:05pm. Still puttering around. Still need to put the clothes in the dryer! lol Later go out to a social activity.
Have a great day!
Thank you, gals & guys, for being here! :)
Tyring to get an early start today. I have been silent much of the week but it has been a very productive week at work. However on the homefront I have a major battle to fight today. The up side is that if I just complete just one "thing" then I will have been more productive at home then I have been all work.
I normally do not used timed list because I get discouraged, but I have to try something different to light a fire under my butt and get me moving. So I will try this today.
Off to sort clothes.
Hummm things are not going as sch. but they are going and I think that is the best that I can do. 3 load of clothes in progress. Getting ready to leave running about 20 min behind sch. Lost time of financials but they are caught up and that is makes me feel GREAT. I can remember the day when it would have taken hours to get caught up but it only took about 45 min. NOW THAT IS PROGRESS. CI when I get back. Have a fun and productive day.
1:50 Quick ci to check progress. I did not maintain my time sch. that I set but "it is all good" setting the time sch. got my "butt" in gear and that is just perfect. Made some adjustments I will CI again around 3:45
stuff for volunteer activity-- started, next thing means copyshop, combine with other errands
credit for even the small steps in house chores.make sure to start.I've started, in a goodframe of mind for this(yes, I know start before you are ready, but it's nice not to be swimming upstream)
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